A Nightmare

I was working till late night, it was maybe dawn already.....

After boiling the water for tomorrow's breakfast, i went to bed. Finally, resting my head on my beloved pillow.

Unconciously, i drifted into dreamland. I couldn't remember what took place earlier on, but i know that i was in school and i saw kim and yam nee saying goodbye to me and they left. I was all alone, and i suddenly remembered the announcement that asked all the students to leave the school.

So i quickly ran back to the classroom to pack my stuff. My sister came to my classroom and told me to hurry up as mum had been waiting for me for so long already. So i make haste. As i was rushing for time, i decided to use the shortcut.... beside the school hall. I couldn't remember that one there. The school hall look strange... not like the one in school. So, i entered a backlane which was surrounded by those bars we see in the prisons.... with some big cylinders in it....

I suddenly realise how stupid i was to use this shortcut as it was a dead end. So, i decided to make a detour. I turned around, but there wasn't any opening for me to go out!!!! OMG, look at what i had got myself into!!! While i was looking for a way out, i saw some movements behind those gigantic cylinders. I thought i saw someone with curly hair. So i look again... This time, i saw Pn Wendy standing in front of me, looking cross. Was i wrong to be here? I thought. Then i remembered that the school hall was undergoing some kind of renovation and students were not allowed to be there. uh oh. Pn Wendy said something like:" U don't belive what i will do to u? U think u can break the school rules without being punished? Give me your hand now!"

So i stretched out my hand and a stroke of cane laid on it. Ouch! With my hand feeling stingingly painful, i left the hall. Pn Wendy had dissapeared to catch the other students in the hall.....

The school hall suddenly turned into a shopping mall, there were shops on my left and right. It was a magnificent shopping complex... However, the escalators were high, long and awfully scary....! I had a phobia for escalators since young. But i had to take one of the escalators to get to the basement where my mum is waiting for me. I think i had taken a very long time and was sure to get a scolding from my mum.

Finally, i managed to open my eyes, staring at my handphone in front of me. Waiting for the alarm to go off. The sight of Pn Wendy, escalators and the shopping mall fade..... my heartbeat started to slow down. I checked my handphone to look at the time, it was 0527.... I had to wake up already, to reboil the water in the kettle, this is what i had to do when my mum is not at home.....

The end of my nightmare.... what a relief..... Pleaselah Pn Wendy, dun haunt me in my dreams anymore, i had been quite an obedient child, i think.... haha

Saturday.

yay! Its Saturday again after a so long, busy week of schooling days!
Normally I had not much things to do during a Saturday but yesterday i was super duperly busy!!

My day started with an early morning tuition, physics...
Pn Liew was so kind to give us tuition on a Saturday!!

After tuition I went back to my aunt's house. At first, there were only last night's left over meehoon for lunch. Just as we were about to heat the meehoon up, a car, fetching my other aunts and cousins came back. Guess what? They brought back lots of food from my Fifth Aunty's house. Yesterday was her daughter's wedding, too bad i didn't attend the tea ceromony. The bridegroom was a DIGI agent. A few days before this wedding, i jokingly tell the others, You better don't be too happy to receive an angpow from him, because it might be a DIGI prepaid card !! lol

In the afternoon, I spent an hour choosing my best outfit to attend the wedding dinner. I couldn't wear one of my new year dress, the most expensive one, for it was too short already. I must have grown taller!! It took me so long to find a dress...!! That's because my aunt had told me to "wear nice nice har".

In the evening I went to the dinner with my other aunts and cousins. We reached there at 7pm and had to wait till 8.45 pm for the dinner to start. I heard from my aunt that the delay was caused by the bride who was throwing tantrums in the waiting room. Haiyo! Be punctual la!! Its your big day, you know?

The dinner was not bad. Except for the fireworks in the restaurant. The smell was awfully bad which caused the food to taste not so nice. However when the smell was gone, haha, I had the appetite to eat again. I ate and ate without thinking that i might get fat. Our table didn't finish the last few dishes. They served the lotus rice last, before dessert. Why? Shouldn't the rice come first?

By the time the dessert came out, cousin Shafiq was sleeping already. I nearly fell asleep too... But no choice la.. Have to "give face"

Reached my aunt's house at !11.30 pm. After bathing i went to sleep.There goes my 24 hours!!

Stress Out!!!

Life had been so very stressful lately...
With mountains high of homeworks, oceans full of homeworks to finish. It seemed quite impossible to finish them in just a day or two, not even when I'm given a month to finish them.


For three days i had been sleeping only at 4am, days of insufficient sleep is driving me crazy....!

-If this situation persist, i will soon become one.



With loads of homeworks, i had been feeling very awful lately, indescribable. I can say it's a mixture of guilt and some other things...

So, i had been venting my anger on some other things...

something i always do...

blaming others... hahahahha





I blame the teachers who were like gone mad or nuts already because they were giving endless homework, especially English...!!!

After completing 24 journal entries, and had thought that all is over, who knows our 'respected' teacher had given us another two more essays....




This must be connected to our 'beloved' headmistress who, lately wanted to check our homeworks.. Is she so freeeeee!! If she has so much extra time, why don't she just give some to me????



I am really not my usual self lately, had been talking a lot of nonsense and making a lot of noise, and pouring cold water on others.... haha fun!



Hope that this homework crisis will be over soon, yes, and hopefully asap..!



Otherwise, I really do not know what will happen to me if i continue to have in suficient sleep, not that i'm afraid that i will become a panda, just that my ' spareparts' are going haywire already...





Whatever it is, no matter how busy we may become, Be happpy!!



Don't know how to do it? Try! As there's a saying, Don't Worry, Be Happy!



Good Luck to all my classmates who are also going through this Homework Crisis!!



All The Best!!!

Indescribable feelings

Well, i really do not know how to start with this post, because, my feelings were all jumble up... confused,dissapointment, sad and loss.... want to know why, read on!!!

First of all.. the exam results came out today. So, i got second. It's actually no big deal, but to tell the truth, dissapointment sure set in. If not, i can be said as inhuman already.. haha. That's because, after putting in much efforts, with nights of insufficent sleep, i would hope for the best in the exam. I'm sure everyone has the same feelings too, right?

Well i'm not as sad as this lah... haha

Well, this is the first situation..

Next one, My dog passed away already. Another one in four months time. Boo Hoo Hoo!!!!!

Cathay, Johor, Rain and now, Siang Siang.

However, i should know that it's about time for Siang Siang to go already.. Its very old already. About 15 years, but for dogs, you have to multiply by 7 to get their actual age.. right?

By the time i reached my aunt's house after i came back from school, i saw Siang Siang lying on the floor, with newspaper covering it. Before that, Second aunt told me and my sister about its departure at midday.

What hurted my heart most was when my aunt describe the moments before it 'leave'. It was like crying out... was it in pain? Poor thing.. Luckily i was in school at that time, otherwise i would break down in an 'ocean' full of tears..

Again, i know that another one of my beloved dogs is now in a place where there is no more sufferings and pains... another one sob, sob...

Looking at it lying on the floor, not moving, not even breathing, a mixture of 'who knows what' feelings feel up every possible space in my heart.

Well, i felt like crying like this now...

After violin lesson, i went to take a nap. Guess what? I dreamt of Siang Siang. When i woke up, i found that i was sweating and my eyes were wet. Was i crying? oooo.. i did not know.

Thats it, what an indescribable day....

But anyway, Thank God... for giving me this day..

Conclusion

Life is full of challenges,

it may be difficult sometimes,

and sometimes you may want to end it as soon as possible;

however we have to know that,

we were given a chance to live on this earth,

not for as long as we want,

but God decides when we will leave this beautiful place,

it is not up to us to decide,

who will live longer,

just because we like them;

or who will leave sooner,

just because we dislike them;

We have to accept whatever the results or the outcomes are,

Not blaming who and who for the unwanted results;

Treat it as a lesson,

where we learn new things,

discover new tricks and strategy to live life the fullest;

Remember that,

life on this earth will end one day,

sooner or later;

therefore, we must live life the fullest,

make it a beautiful memory,

unforgettable, colourful,

and wonderful,

that those who know us will not forget...

Tag!!!!

OMG!!! was tagged by buddy cum friend Kim!!! I can't say whether it is a blessing or not??? cos i don't even have eight people whom i can tag!!! Anyway, i will just answer the questions there. Is it ok, Kim?

1. Who is your all-time inspiration?

*Florence Nightingale (her care and concern towards patients)

*Richard Clayderman (the way he plays the piano)

2. Where is the place you want to go most?

* Afghanistan...haha

3.If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

*World peace??? maybe...

4.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

*absolutely yes!!!

5.What are you afraid to lose the most now?

*everything i have in hand now

6.If you win $1 million, what would you do?

* buy a house, go on a tour, donation....

7.If you meet someone that you love, will you confess to him / her?

*maybe

8.List out 3 good points the person who tagged you.

* cheerful( sometimes)

* good leader( i think...)

* can sing! and very good at that....

9.What are the requirements that you wished from your other half?

* Thoughtful

* not someone fierce, i mean someone like our 'beloved' Cik Aminah

10. Which type of people do you hate the most?

* people who cheats

* corrupted ones

* those who think they are very 'big' just because they are rich... i mean, in chinese, hao lian...

11. What is your ambition?

* to be a doctor when i grow up... so that i can find cures to diseases that are uncurable now.

12. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

* point it out to me, but politely and indirectly

13. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

* my family, and my dogs

14. Are you a shopaholic or not?

* nope

15.Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.

* I would say, childish

16.If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?

*scary cat character

17.What's the last shocking thing you have ever seen or heard?

* Siang Siang is going to die.... maybe tommorow....

18. What is happiness?

* A kind of feeling that make you feel better when you are down, and makes you laugh or smile.

19. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?

* Kim- she has very good experiences

* Yam Nee- she's well known as a tiger, to scare away bad people

* I don't have a third one.... haha

20. Have you ever been in love?

* Absolutely not and hopefully NEVER!!!!

p/s: i'm not doing the last part.. paiseh leh.. haha

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I done! haha.

Nite Nite...