Greeeeeeetings!!!! hahaa.... i've no idea why am i so high lately...
actually, the results for the matriculation program should be out today.... and it turned out that i was offered a place in Kolej Matrikulasi Pulau Pinang...yay! or boo!...i got a shocked when i saw the outcome....i always thought that the non-bumis will not have much chance to get this matrics thing...so after keying in my ic number abd pressed 'Enter' i covered both eyes with my hands in front of the computer screen....i don't want to know the results!!!....but i still had to put my hands down right? so, i put them down...and saw the word tahniah.....and blaa blaa blaa..
Honestly, for the past week i was fretting whether i'd get this matrics or not....i'd that unexplainable feeling of fear in my heart....i'm scared that i'd get this offer... and it turned out that i did.... i should be happy right...???
but no... the moment i put down my hands, i jumped right up from my chair....the chair squeaked...hahhaha....another shocking thing-i'm supposed to register on the 11th of May....haiz..so soon... however, i felt that this is a decision and a sign that God had shown me.... this is the path He wanted me to take....
Family reactions:
Broke this news to my parents....they were happy and excited.... and starting to make plans to take leave....hahhaha....
Mum called her second sis to ask more about this matriculation program.... she's been hoping that i'd get matrics....but then again...no more Maria -that's me, ahem to help her with the house chores....wash clothes, hang clothes, fold clothes, sweep floor, mop floor....e.t.c.
my sister was like reluctant to let me go P.Pinang....nobody's going to help her boil water in the morning when mum's not around....nobody's going to help her with her homework....pity her also...
Daddy was happy also.... started talking about he can't drive to P.Pinang....and said that we will fly by Air Asia instead.... but he's going to have problems with his leave....he can't take leave on Sunday, you see...
My aunties were happy too....because like me, they didn't expect me to get matrics too.... and surprisingly they allowed me to go....
Now, it's time for me to sort out ' what's wrong with me'....
Initially i don't felt like going....why?
1. too far
2. had to stay in hostel
3. can i come home during holidays?
4. i'm going to leave home soon
5. i've just got my P lisence and i haven't had enough fun driving yet, after earning it the hard way, failed 2 times....haha
6. have to muster my courage and determination to study again--my brains were having a long long break...they might need some time to warm up again...
7. i can't go form 6....just wanted to wear that uniform to complete my uniform collection...hahha
8. am going to a place where i'm bounded by rules again....
9. there's going to be some short term holiday only--the longest being 2 weeks...not 2 months ok?
10. they didn't state clearly what they want us to do after checking online.... how and what do we need to bring for the registration?? should there be a letter?? or should we call the hotline??
11. i'm going to miss everyone and everything here:
-my family
-my dogs, ecspecially those two puppies: bongkang(means stupid in hainamnese) and kanga (means trying to be clever in hainamnese also)
- my favourite food
-my room
-my snuggles.......and many many more...
After that, that is only after my mum telling me more about this program, i made up my mind to go, why?
-it's good (explain lah)
-got pocket money
-guarantee masuk university
-affordable--just pay RM220
-nobody objected to me going for matrics--that's the main reason i agreed to go...hahha
Conclusion: I'm going to KM Pulau Pinang.....yay!!
Today's the first time i drove mum's car...i got my P lisence yesterday...
it was fun and exciting for me..and it was like a horror ride for my mum...wahahhaha... she was scared that i would drive the car into a drain....and this car's an automated one..unlike the one i'm used to drive-the manual one...hahha
hmm..i drove from my house to my aunt's house...arrived safely..
next, drove from my aunt's house to my house....arrived safely...got honed by a taxi...
next, drove my sis to pn. liew's house for tuition..arrived safely..
next, from pn. liew's house to Leisure mall....reached the car park....swapped seats with mum
next, again from aunt's house to my house....arrived safely....that's it...hahhaha
can't blame me....i going to leave this place already...better let me drive till puas puas before i forgot how to drive after leaving this place...hahhaha
today's post's kinda long....haha..
oklah..i shall stop here...
GB....h.a. (happy always)
Friday, April 17, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
At last...
Everybody.....i FINALLY passed my driving test today!!! Hallelujah!!.....
wah, this really gave a sense of relieve....as well as satisfaction....wahahha...after 2 failed attempts, i finally made it.....woohoohoo!!!
self reflecting----
everytime when my friends didn't do well in their exams, i'd always encourage them and tell them to keep on trying, do not give up...next time will be better...i didn't think that applying the same thing to myself was that difficult.....there were many times i thought of giving up just like that...what i mean was just forget about the driving test...then, i'd think of those things i'd say to my friends...i remembered telling them to keep trying...don't give up...maybe your are not talented in this particular thing, but maybe you'll do well in other things....i tried teling myself these...but sometimes...it just won't work..Luckily it was my driving teacher who made the driving test booking for me, otherwise i don't know how long i'm going to drag this test....in a way, avoiding it...
Reflecting back, i used to do well in most of the things i do (obviously not all lah)....all by God's grace i'd say...and this repeated failure in my driving test really hit me hard.....my other friends just took the test once and they passed...but i had to take a third time....i felt so small.... i felt what 'tiger' used to feel...she used to tell me that she felt herself not as excellent as the others (in fact she isn't....and i have no idea what made her think that way)...and i remembered cracking my brains to find a way to console and encourage her.....haha..now, this same thing is happening to me....i was having the feeling of lack of courage to meet the rest of them...haha..
But now...i'm just elated and happy!!! After 4 months of struggling...now, i'm free!!! yay!!!
So, those talks of don't give up are not nonsense after all....hahhahaha...at least i think so...sometimes we should really learn things the hard way....hahha..at least i'm more confident in driving now...haha....
Thanks to my friends for their encouragements and supports and tips too....hahha...and also thanks to my driving teacher..i know how frequently i made many silly and annoying mistakes...wahaha...and also thanks to all 3 jpj testers for their patience..haha.....
Words can't describe my feelings now.....hahaha...
Right now, another burden off my shoulders....haha..so, i'm going to continue rotting at home...wahaha....Plans to further study had to wait till the JPA scholarship results come out on the 3rd week of May....haha...But what i'm sure of now is that....i want to be a Doctor....hahhahah...at least my mind isn't fluctuating now...it is fixed....hahhaha
....gbu....smile!!
wah, this really gave a sense of relieve....as well as satisfaction....wahahha...after 2 failed attempts, i finally made it.....woohoohoo!!!
self reflecting----
everytime when my friends didn't do well in their exams, i'd always encourage them and tell them to keep on trying, do not give up...next time will be better...i didn't think that applying the same thing to myself was that difficult.....there were many times i thought of giving up just like that...what i mean was just forget about the driving test...then, i'd think of those things i'd say to my friends...i remembered telling them to keep trying...don't give up...maybe your are not talented in this particular thing, but maybe you'll do well in other things....i tried teling myself these...but sometimes...it just won't work..Luckily it was my driving teacher who made the driving test booking for me, otherwise i don't know how long i'm going to drag this test....in a way, avoiding it...
Reflecting back, i used to do well in most of the things i do (obviously not all lah)....all by God's grace i'd say...and this repeated failure in my driving test really hit me hard.....my other friends just took the test once and they passed...but i had to take a third time....i felt so small.... i felt what 'tiger' used to feel...she used to tell me that she felt herself not as excellent as the others (in fact she isn't....and i have no idea what made her think that way)...and i remembered cracking my brains to find a way to console and encourage her.....haha..now, this same thing is happening to me....i was having the feeling of lack of courage to meet the rest of them...haha..
But now...i'm just elated and happy!!! After 4 months of struggling...now, i'm free!!! yay!!!
So, those talks of don't give up are not nonsense after all....hahhahaha...at least i think so...sometimes we should really learn things the hard way....hahha..at least i'm more confident in driving now...haha....
Thanks to my friends for their encouragements and supports and tips too....hahha...and also thanks to my driving teacher..i know how frequently i made many silly and annoying mistakes...wahaha...and also thanks to all 3 jpj testers for their patience..haha.....
Words can't describe my feelings now.....hahaha...
Right now, another burden off my shoulders....haha..so, i'm going to continue rotting at home...wahaha....Plans to further study had to wait till the JPA scholarship results come out on the 3rd week of May....haha...But what i'm sure of now is that....i want to be a Doctor....hahhahah...at least my mind isn't fluctuating now...it is fixed....hahhaha
....gbu....smile!!
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Good Friday!!
Yo!! It's been a long time since i last updated my blog...hahhaa...actually there's nothing much to update about....that's why i just left it the way it is....wahaha
Pasted a strile strip on the wound, hoping that it would seal up nicely....don't form a scar please...and then plastered it with a strip of opsite...hahahha....
....there my finger with plaster..hahhahahaha
Woke up very early, 8 am to go for driving lesson...wahaha...hope that i will be able to pass this test...if i said if...i were to fail this test again, i guess i should just live in KL...because the public tranport there is more convenient than those found n JB...hahhaa..those MRT, LRT, monorail..and blaa blaa blaa....hahhahaha..but again..that's is IF i fail again...hahaa...
After driving for 2 hours, i went home...with more confidence?? Maybe not...hahhaa....but i'll try....Try Try Try....wahaha -(thinking that i might be nuts)
Something really interesting happened in the evening....guess what???...i'm just as clumsy as an elephant...and this caused me to get into trouble most of the time... I took out a mango from the fridge to cut..for myself....at the same time, i was rushing too watch a drama series....haha..so i tried to be fast...slice slice slice...and i reached the seed...i was so frustrated that i couldn't go on any deeper, so i exerted more force...forgeting that my little finger was in the way....and whooosh...the knife cut through my FINGER!!!!! at first, i saw no blood...so i decided to continue slicing the mango....but a few seconds later i found blood ooooozing out from the wound....WAHHH...it was then i realise that the cut was realllll painful.....without second thought, i turned on the tap which was right beside me at that time....and wash the wound under running water....sakitnya!!!!!!
After that i ran out of the kitchen....towards the box of tissue on the table....while i shouted at my mum and sis : "everybody, i have good news and bad news. The good news, my mango is orange in colour..(which i thought that it was sweet)...and the bad news...I CUT MY FINGER!!!!!!!"...hahhaha....with a piece of tissue on the cut....i jumped and hoped round the whole living room in pain....yelling and shouting at the same time....hahahaha...the neighbours would have thought that i've gone crazy....wow...there was quite an amount of blood....2 pieces of tissue...luckily, it stopped bleeding after a little while....i felt relieved....the wound seemed quite deeped and i was worried about kiliot formation....on my finger??? no way....hahhaha
Pasted a strile strip on the wound, hoping that it would seal up nicely....don't form a scar please...and then plastered it with a strip of opsite...hahahha....
....there my finger with plaster..hahhahahahaand then watch tv....in a way to distract myself....watch the Life No Take 2 drama....my third time....it's quite nice, touching....it's an easter drama by the singapore actor and actresses....they came to our church for a 3 days performance starting yesterday....
so, there it is...my first post for april.....Happpy Easter!!!!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Putting up a strong front
well, it's hard for me to say it out loud this time, but it is a fact....I failed my driving test again mipo....so how? retake again lah....that seems to be the only way out. I felt really embarassed.. among my friends i'm the only lucky one to have the chance to retake my deiving test...up till now, everyone passed their tests one time round...phew...and me?? going around and gladly tell everyone i failed....wahaha...
I seldom do so badly in all the tests i took..except that i had failed my BM during primary 5.But this one was....terrible!! How i wished that i'd passed the first time, though it was just a small mistake that caused me to fail. This time was worse...after two weeks of not driving, i guessed i'd lost touch with my skills....the car didn't seem to move although i stepped on the accelerator and released the clutch...so what did i do? Step harder on the accelerator!!! wahaha.. what a joke....coming to think of it...i guess i should release more clutch right?? i'm not sure...so, everytime i stopped, i was struck by this dilemna....the car won't move, and when it does, it went vroom...speeding forwards...it wasn't like this before....and i don't know why...the d-moment came when i reached a junction and was supposed to stop. When i was ready to go, released the clutch and step on the accelerator...still the car won't move...this time, the engine died on me.... the examiner was getting impatient... i know...since the car move forward a little bit, over the spot where we were supposed to stop, the verdct: i failed....wahaha...
we swapped seats and he drove me back to Berjaya....at that time, i felt: what a disgrace!!! but i know that i can't just give up...!! i don't feel like telling anyone about this... the last time i went around telling everybody, but this time, i just felt...sad, dismay....despair....haiz...
That's the sad part of my story...i shan't elaborate on it....afraid that it might draw tears in my eyes... they are swollen enough already....due to days of insufficient sleep
Ok....today, i went for the JPA scholarship interview...
2nd aunty drove me there. Together we went with mumy and aunty Mary. When we reached Kluang, we stopped by aunty Moi Chai's house. Then together, the 4 of us went for lunch at Prime City hotel...wow!! the lunch was fantastic!! Mine was chicken chop with rice + a glass of orange juice, and guess what, it only costs RM7.90!! hahha...Thank You aunty Moi Chai for the lunch!!!!
Next, we headed for INTAN, where the interview was held. Registered and submitted the photocopied documents. i was placed at Panel 3, guess what?? i was the first on the 2pm list of Panel3 wahahah...mambo number 1!! We went into the interview room in groups of 5. My group consists of 4 chinese and 1 indian. So, we were greeted by 3 interviewers. We sat according to our numbers but only after we were asked to sit lah, i don't want to be rude. haha..
First, we were asked to introduce ourselves....of course, me was the first to start...so, i started off with my name, from JB, came from SMKST, my family members and my hobby....nervous??maybe not!! wahahha...
After the brief self introduction in Malay, we were asked to discuss a given topic in English. The topisc given was How to reduce dengue cases? so, the 5 of us gathered around and had a 2 minutes discussion. After that we were asked one by one to present our idea. .... blah blah blah.. Next, we were given another topic, but this time we need to present it in Malay....The topic was How to overcome the shortage of Specialis Doctors in our country?? in Malay lah of course.... but i just translate it. So, again we were given 2 minutes to discuss. After that, present. I did not take note how long did the interview last...after saying thank you and leaving our signatures, we went back to the waiting hall to get back our files.
Next, went back home...it's a long journey..plus the wheather was so hot too!!....hahaha but i'm quite satisfied with my performance today....haha..at least much much better than what happened yesterday....i feel much better now....
Whether i get this scholarship or not does not matter much to me, i'd known in the first place that it's quite hard to get this scholarship as the places available are limited especially courses like medicine...but it's the experience that i valued the most...at least, this time i wasn't as nervous as the time i went for the Taylor's Principle Awards interview.
ok, that's it for now....tommorrow's April fool!!...
Nitez n god bless
I seldom do so badly in all the tests i took..except that i had failed my BM during primary 5.But this one was....terrible!! How i wished that i'd passed the first time, though it was just a small mistake that caused me to fail. This time was worse...after two weeks of not driving, i guessed i'd lost touch with my skills....the car didn't seem to move although i stepped on the accelerator and released the clutch...so what did i do? Step harder on the accelerator!!! wahaha.. what a joke....coming to think of it...i guess i should release more clutch right?? i'm not sure...so, everytime i stopped, i was struck by this dilemna....the car won't move, and when it does, it went vroom...speeding forwards...it wasn't like this before....and i don't know why...the d-moment came when i reached a junction and was supposed to stop. When i was ready to go, released the clutch and step on the accelerator...still the car won't move...this time, the engine died on me.... the examiner was getting impatient... i know...since the car move forward a little bit, over the spot where we were supposed to stop, the verdct: i failed....wahaha...
we swapped seats and he drove me back to Berjaya....at that time, i felt: what a disgrace!!! but i know that i can't just give up...!! i don't feel like telling anyone about this... the last time i went around telling everybody, but this time, i just felt...sad, dismay....despair....haiz...
That's the sad part of my story...i shan't elaborate on it....afraid that it might draw tears in my eyes... they are swollen enough already....due to days of insufficient sleep
Ok....today, i went for the JPA scholarship interview...
2nd aunty drove me there. Together we went with mumy and aunty Mary. When we reached Kluang, we stopped by aunty Moi Chai's house. Then together, the 4 of us went for lunch at Prime City hotel...wow!! the lunch was fantastic!! Mine was chicken chop with rice + a glass of orange juice, and guess what, it only costs RM7.90!! hahha...Thank You aunty Moi Chai for the lunch!!!!
Next, we headed for INTAN, where the interview was held. Registered and submitted the photocopied documents. i was placed at Panel 3, guess what?? i was the first on the 2pm list of Panel3 wahahah...mambo number 1!! We went into the interview room in groups of 5. My group consists of 4 chinese and 1 indian. So, we were greeted by 3 interviewers. We sat according to our numbers but only after we were asked to sit lah, i don't want to be rude. haha..
First, we were asked to introduce ourselves....of course, me was the first to start...so, i started off with my name, from JB, came from SMKST, my family members and my hobby....nervous??maybe not!! wahahha...
After the brief self introduction in Malay, we were asked to discuss a given topic in English. The topisc given was How to reduce dengue cases? so, the 5 of us gathered around and had a 2 minutes discussion. After that we were asked one by one to present our idea. .... blah blah blah.. Next, we were given another topic, but this time we need to present it in Malay....The topic was How to overcome the shortage of Specialis Doctors in our country?? in Malay lah of course.... but i just translate it. So, again we were given 2 minutes to discuss. After that, present. I did not take note how long did the interview last...after saying thank you and leaving our signatures, we went back to the waiting hall to get back our files.
Next, went back home...it's a long journey..plus the wheather was so hot too!!....hahaha but i'm quite satisfied with my performance today....haha..at least much much better than what happened yesterday....i feel much better now....
Whether i get this scholarship or not does not matter much to me, i'd known in the first place that it's quite hard to get this scholarship as the places available are limited especially courses like medicine...but it's the experience that i valued the most...at least, this time i wasn't as nervous as the time i went for the Taylor's Principle Awards interview.
ok, that's it for now....tommorrow's April fool!!...
Nitez n god bless
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Hari kecemerlangan
Went to school at 9am today for hari kecemerlangan....Had a chance to catch up with my friends...glad to know that they all had already made plans for their future, at least this is better than those...''i don't know'', ''see first'' answers.... hahha.. well, but there are still some who are still unsure of what they should do... haiz..
I forgot to take note of the time the event started.... but it started with speeches from the pengetua, Micheal Tay and YB Mok...to tell the truth, i wasn't paying attention to their speeches... because the echoes were just too loud... plus, they were really long and boring..... hahhahaha...
Finally, it's prize giving time!!! Got RM30.00 and a certificate.....quite satisfied though....hahhaha...Anyway, i didn't study hard just to get this money... hahhaha..
After receiving our prizes, we left for City Square..... KC drove us girls there...
Had lunch at Wong Kok...ordered a plate of mee and a glass of milk tea.... The food was nice, but i don't know why, i just felt nauseous....these few days i'm starting to have these feelings again.... stomachache...nauseous...and giddiness....i'm just worried that i'm again suffering from gastroentiritis, the so called stomach flu.....i'd just recovered from that last month....and it's terrible!!!!
After that, me, Kim and Yam Nee went to the washroom... and then we headed for popular because i need to help my sis to get a testpad.... Went to the testpad section, and chose one....the cheapest one of course.... haha... on my way to the counter, i caught sight of a few boxes of jigsaw puzzle a few centimeters away from the stacks of testpads......haha... went to take a look at them of course.... hahaa....ended up buying one for myself... because the price was reasonable, plus there was a 20% discount... and it has the picture of doggies.... wheee!!! hahaha
Went to meet the rest of them at the cinema.... but i don't intend to watch a movie...it will just be a waste if i bought a movie ticket..i might be sleeping throughout the whole movie for all you know...hahha..i'm so tired....my eyelids were closed to shutting....i can't even feel that i'm walking...floating perhaps,..... hahahha
Accompanied Yam Nee to buy her hairband...she couldn't find a bag she likes....failed to find a dress for herself too....
After spending for almost 2 hours at city square, me and yam nee went back home....by taxi of course...hahha..and you know what... we were cheated by the taxi driver... he actually charged us RM10, from CS to yam nee's house in Tebrau Jaya.....we looked at each other....puzzled...it used to be RM5 to RM7.....according to YN.....but we didn't say anything, just paid the taxi fare....
Mum fetched me from YN's house.....
Back home, felt sick....diarhoea again since yesterday...felt like vomitting....urgh.....maybe it's stress or something...just hope that it wouldn't be anything serious...i still had many things to do these few days....again reminding myself, i'm having my driving test this Monday,1pm and getting the pengetua's signature for the borang pengesahan pendapatan keluarga...JPA interview this Tuesday,2pm....haiz.... Hope that all things will go well...i don't want to repeat it again....
Anyway, today's Earth Hour...and we were supposed to turned off all non-essential lights from 8.30pm till 9.30pm....haha...i'd long waited for this day, but Daddy came back late, so, i had to leave some of the lights on....haiz... i thought of turning them off...but i couldn't lah...so, i just turned off those lights that we could do without them....
Ok, that's it for now....
I forgot to take note of the time the event started.... but it started with speeches from the pengetua, Micheal Tay and YB Mok...to tell the truth, i wasn't paying attention to their speeches... because the echoes were just too loud... plus, they were really long and boring..... hahhahaha...
Finally, it's prize giving time!!! Got RM30.00 and a certificate.....quite satisfied though....hahhaha...Anyway, i didn't study hard just to get this money... hahhaha..
After receiving our prizes, we left for City Square..... KC drove us girls there...
Had lunch at Wong Kok...ordered a plate of mee and a glass of milk tea.... The food was nice, but i don't know why, i just felt nauseous....these few days i'm starting to have these feelings again.... stomachache...nauseous...and giddiness....i'm just worried that i'm again suffering from gastroentiritis, the so called stomach flu.....i'd just recovered from that last month....and it's terrible!!!!
After that, me, Kim and Yam Nee went to the washroom... and then we headed for popular because i need to help my sis to get a testpad.... Went to the testpad section, and chose one....the cheapest one of course.... haha... on my way to the counter, i caught sight of a few boxes of jigsaw puzzle a few centimeters away from the stacks of testpads......haha... went to take a look at them of course.... hahaa....ended up buying one for myself... because the price was reasonable, plus there was a 20% discount... and it has the picture of doggies.... wheee!!! hahaha
Went to meet the rest of them at the cinema.... but i don't intend to watch a movie...it will just be a waste if i bought a movie ticket..i might be sleeping throughout the whole movie for all you know...hahha..i'm so tired....my eyelids were closed to shutting....i can't even feel that i'm walking...floating perhaps,..... hahahha
Accompanied Yam Nee to buy her hairband...she couldn't find a bag she likes....failed to find a dress for herself too....
After spending for almost 2 hours at city square, me and yam nee went back home....by taxi of course...hahha..and you know what... we were cheated by the taxi driver... he actually charged us RM10, from CS to yam nee's house in Tebrau Jaya.....we looked at each other....puzzled...it used to be RM5 to RM7.....according to YN.....but we didn't say anything, just paid the taxi fare....
Mum fetched me from YN's house.....
Back home, felt sick....diarhoea again since yesterday...felt like vomitting....urgh.....maybe it's stress or something...just hope that it wouldn't be anything serious...i still had many things to do these few days....again reminding myself, i'm having my driving test this Monday,1pm and getting the pengetua's signature for the borang pengesahan pendapatan keluarga...JPA interview this Tuesday,2pm....haiz.... Hope that all things will go well...i don't want to repeat it again....
Anyway, today's Earth Hour...and we were supposed to turned off all non-essential lights from 8.30pm till 9.30pm....haha...i'd long waited for this day, but Daddy came back late, so, i had to leave some of the lights on....haiz... i thought of turning them off...but i couldn't lah...so, i just turned off those lights that we could do without them....
Ok, that's it for now....
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