selanjar 1--- IS OVER!!!!

selanjar 1...

it's my first exam in university,
it's my first exam as an undergraduate,
and... of course, i actually anticipated it to come (and go)... haha

different format, settings and time given..

we have spot slide assessment, where pictures will be flashed out in powerpoint, and we have to answer some related questions on separate sheets of paper....

we have short essay questions, quite the same as before, it's just that we have to write 5 essays, 10 points for each and within---- 50 Minnutes only!!!!!

we have multiple choice quetions, this time, cannot simply 'tembak', for 0.5 marks will be deducted for every wrong answer given... and only 1 mark for each correct answer.

haiz... it took 3 miserable days for this exam... which could actually, in my opinion, be completed within a day.... it becomes too stressful, 1 day 1 paper... after that paper- go back study for the next one-- while studying--saw that topic which came out during the last paper...--think, think think...--ahhhhh!!!! i wrong already!!! die liao la... :(

but it's impossible for us to change the answers already-- it's too late
why not look at another different perspective--by getting better marks for the next paper, to ''salvage'' the loss in the previous ones... :)-- but it's just too difficult to do so... haha-- regretting for not revising on that particular topic... haiz....

well, it's all over now.... time to relax a bit

going for Christian Fellowship camp tomorow!!!

and when we come back, another whole new block awaits us--CNS (central nervous system)

haha...

well, some updates for now...
going to mydin later... lalalala... shopping!!!!

not again...

perhaps you all would think that i'm already used to these coming back home and then after 1 week or so, pack up and leave for some faraway, not so comfortable place...

but, frankly speaking, i'm not so used to it yet... ecspecially now, when the holidays are shorter than in matrics.-- 1 week nia.. :(

this holiday, i said that i would be back to study... but did i??

obviously not... maybe a little, but not as much as i had expected...

this means that i have to work extra hard while i'm back in campus, to make up for all those time i had spent relaxingly at home.

however, i will not regret spending my holidays to relax. at least i could eat all i want, sleep all i want and at long last, watch some shows on TV, plus online!!!!(the internet line in usmkk is too lembap already) in other words... there is no place like home... :)

again... i have to leave this comfy environment.. haiz how i wished i could turn back time to the time before i boarded the train.. but if i were to be able to turn back time, my life would probably still revolve around my first holiday in matriculation... !!!!! hahahaa.... because that was how i felt everytime i came home during breaks...

nevermind, it's also an adventure to venture into what is in stored for us up front in the future... where is my fighting spirit??? i should be braver and bolder by now... at least that's what i hoped..
++God will always be there for me when i need Him ++

even though what lies ahead may be quite scary--the feeling of being left out, being used ( it's what i felt only la)

sometimes who you think are your best friends weren't really treating you like one, and sometimes people you trust, actually hurt you in some way they say things... and sometimes you feel so sad and alone that you want to cry.... all these are the challenges in life!!! and you know why??? it's because we are living with humans!! people!! we all have feelings, emotions and brains....

in essays, we always end with conclusions like:'' therefore, we should be brave while dealing with the challenges in life....''

yeah, that's quite true... being brave is one thing, but we also should be wise and resilent!!! ><

well, again... i'm going back to kelantan day after tommorow...
tommorow's my last day at home.. i'd already eaten my fill these few days.. and i'm contented
time to buckle up, and turn on the engine to be ready for another week of lecture...
and after that.... it's Selanjar!!!!

and after selanjar... CF camp!!! woohoo!! haha

home, once again..

once again, i'm embraced in the air and the warmth of my dearest hometown-- Johor Bahru

the place i've always thought of and missed all these while...

i never have the opportunity to come back home as frequently as i wanted, ever since i enter matriculation college in penang...

sometimes i wonder, why some people are just so lucky...

but...

if i were to be as lucky like them, i doubt i would ever learn to be like what i am today...

to be independent, and to trust people around me, and also to mix around... though i'm still an individual with few words...

however...

sometimes i'm just so envious of my friends that they could always go back home when they don't feel like staying in the hostel, but i have no where to go, except to be stuck in that place....

yesterday evening, i boarded the KTM coach for the first time ever in my life!!!!

i'm coming home again!!!!

and it was quite an experience for me... i can actually lie down in the coach... because i bought the ticket for a place to sleep... haha

13 hours journey from wakaf bharu to johor bahru... ''gedek gedek... choo!!!!'' at first it wasn't easy to get use to the ''rocky'' journey.

back to a few days before i was able to pack and go home... i've the whole room to myself for almost a week, since my room mates went home for their holidays already... because they were health science students, while practically only the medic and dental students were left behind in campus.. haha

this is something i made from the wrappers of the candy my room mate gave me... too tired from studying already... there's just too many things to memorise now.. human anatomy-- upper limb, lower limd, thorax....etc

no time to lose...

i'm going to make this post as short as possible. after this, i'm going to shut down my laptop and start STUDYING!!!

there's so much to study!!! piles of lecture notes, since last last week.. i haven't even begin glancing through those, i got some more today. seems like i have to speed up--from 1st gear to 5th gear now.. another few more weeks to my Selanjar1, but that's after the raya break; something to rejoice, but at the same time, not a good idea, because that means that i can't even relax when i'm at home!!! no outings!! no gossiping!!! no shoppings!!! argh!!!!

however, as life gets busier, the days in USMKK seems to passby faster... i think i'm starting to get used to this place.. but i'm still frequently complaining about the hostel, ecspecially when it's hot, no water... and black outs!!!! haiz... i even thought of 'migrating' to the other hostel which is quite far away from the faculty. but seriously, i don't mind walking the distance for a better environment. The only thing that is stopping me now is i'm worried about my chances of getting a room next year, because nurani is infamous for 'kicking' people out; on the other hand, my murni seems safer :) and also, if i were to change room, i will have new roommates to get used to.. and to adapt to their living styles..... haiz... ''if changing rooms is going to be easier.... haiz...''

study, study, study... that's what we all do nowadays.. luckily i've settled the WUS project--sales. never did i imagined that our group would get profit from selling the things we did-- second hand magazines, books, comics, colouring pencil and books , necklace and bracelets.. YAY!!! Thank God!! we got profit... at first, i just prayed that we wouldn't lose money, just hope that we could earn enough money to cover the cost.... but miracolously, we managed to earn RM44.50. even though it's just a small amount, but we were contented :)

now, we have community service pula!! it's time to prove our reply during the interview.
interviewer: why do think you want to be a doctor?
interviewee: because i like to help people ma.....
now, prove it!!!!

but that's after selanjar... put that one on hold first...

tommorow, there'll be a gathering with the Johor seniors.. haiz i didn't prepare any presentations to present leh... sure they will try to ask us to do something to humour them >< i die liao la!!!!! maybe i'll have stomachache or anything tommorow.... i don't feel like going!!! i'm not the only one, all the first years didn't want to go also.. hahhaha.... reason: we want to STudy!!!! and knowing what we would think, the seniors had warn us against bringing any notes to the gathering... haha smart!!

tommorow's friday again.. going to church!!! heehee :) i felt excited going to church and cf... i don't know why... maybe it's that sense of belonging... going for cell group dinner isn't that stressful as going to a johor gathering.. haiz ==''

ok.. i guess that's all for now... 2 more weeks, and i can go home for RAYA!!!! haha

sigh...

things didn't turn out to be as bad as i imagined... it turned out that my WUS group members were so helpful :) i didn't realised it earlier...

now i'm not so pessimistic about that project anymore. the fact about we can't change what is boud to happen, but we can always change the way we think about things.. is quite true after all :D it is the mind that's controlling what we are... it is the mind that tells us whether we can or cannot do it... i have experienced all of these before... ecspecially the part about doing something that i thought that i coudn't do..but when i changed my mind all the impossibles became possible... ^^ but when i don't feel like doing anything, and just shut my eyes and mind and go to sleep.. and nothing will be accomplished.. heehee.. (by sleeping, it's my only way of getting away from all the problems that i'm reluctant to solve)

it's not so bad afterall!! once we got the stuffs, we can now sell!! haha.. but that's the biggest headache, but nevermind, i know the whole gang of 6 people, we, will be able to get this solved together :) gambateh!!! it's team spirit we need ^^

i also have my jiejie in the same group as me.. heehee

as you all know i don't have any elder sister.. but we're sort of related... since she's older than me by 1 year, so she's jiejie.. haha it's good to have her around...at least someone close that can rely on ><

haiz... another 1 more day at jb... will be leaving jb on saturday afternoon.. to be honest, i don't really feel like going back.. why?? i don't know.. what scares me the most there??

we have..

-de CHARLIE to thank for!!! i thought i had escaped the clutches of the vengeful Charlies in kmpp..

- the toilet!!! water small.. bathe halfway no water...

-and other reasons i also don't know.... it's a kind of fear, but i don't know what is it... who cares?? haha

anyway, it's what i had always wanted-- study medicine in USM ( i always thought that it's in Penang) haiz... so, like i said just now, just change my perception on studying in kelantan

Kelantan is nice.... kelantan is the best!!!!
Kelantan is SERIOUSLY nice!!!!
USMKK is a nice place..!!! nice scenery!!!!...
NO POLUtION= LiVES lonGer!!

to talk is always easier than to be done.. maybe in this case, more time is needed.. phew==''