Stresss!!!

Long time no see!!!! this goes to show that i'm really busy..haha

i started my life as a 2nd year medical student last september, and till now i haven't found any time for me to a rest. I guess the 4 months break before this was for us to prepare ourselves mentally for all these challenges we wil face this year.

first, i had to get myself use to the syllabus in second year which does not cover the theory stuff only, but also, we have to go to wards and start clerking and presenting case. Next, they also integrated something called ''Problem-based learning'' into our curriculum where we were divided into groups of 12 people, and we need to be active in discussion to get points...and most of the commitees of our campus activities are second years. So, who said that 2nd year was ''Honey-moon'' year???.... IT's A LiE!!!!

This time, i thought that finally i could take some rest from the hectic uni life, because it was after our 1st exam in 2nd year....but i was wrong yet again. sedih lo :'(

my break started with a camp in Port Dickson. It's USM collaborative training, where we were exposed to and trained to be rescuers if some disaster were to happen, such as land slide, earth quake and accidents. We had simulations of the real situation there, and we were taught on how to do triage, tagging the victims as red, yellow, green or white(dead), manage the victims, we also get to pose as victims...and and and most interestingly i learnt how to use a walkie talkie!!! haha... ^^

because of this camp, 4 days were minus from my supposingly 9 days holidays... haiz 

But it's not bad after all... i've gained quite some 'not-so-camp-related' esperience in fact.. haha>< Going somewhere so far from kelantan for a camp is not so fun if you endure almost 13hours of freaking bus ride there just for the camp.

So, we had some fun at the beach!!!!



and for my 1st time ever, i tried riding this 'Pencil'!! haha



Even i myself would not have believe that i would be so brave to be riding on this thing which will turnover 4 times throwing all riders in the middle of the sea!!! been there, done that.... after this, i won't be trying it again, once is enough...phew!!!

there was another thrill ride we tried over there. they call it the 'Doughnut'... same thing, once is enough... the side effects of that deadly 'doughnut' -- hurt my neck muscles--and is enough to last for 4 days... ><

i was so exhausted after the camp, with injuries all over.. thinking that i could rest when i get back home. but, maybe rest was not meant for me.. while i was on the bus from kl central to lcct, i got a message rushing me to contact the IPG people about the upcoming CF family day.. :(  i felt so sad!!! sedih betul lo.. :'( '' i mean, please la, be more understanding....i haven't even reach home yet.'' i felt so unfair!!! people already resting at home, and perhaps nothing to do for 3 or more days already, i'm just beginning my holiday!!... urgh!! speechless....

Next day, another sms to remind me of the things i need to know as the ketua station for the upcoming Healthex, speaking of which... being a 'ketua' which i do not want to be :'( all i did was being absent for the 1st meeting, and i wasn't absent for no reason, i was SICK okay....and tadaa!! lesson learnt: NEVER be absent for any meeting!!!!

also, there's also things to prepare for the chinese cultural night event. PROMO video!!! well, it's actually for the sake to pain more experience, which will be useful for our cf media crew :)

besides i was woken up few minutes before 8am this morning by CF family day comittee asking regarding the IPG participants again.. sedih o... :'( awal-awal pagi sudah dibangunkan....

and all these events are coming soon, March and April... haiz, i don't know how to manage all these stress all at the same time.. :( even my break which i thought i could put down all these 'burdens' and at least relieve stress for a while, is GONE!!!

There's only one way i know i could survive this.. and only HE can help me.. ''I can do all things through CHrist who gives me strength''-- Philipians 4:13

I don't know how i'm going to handle all these things all at once, but all i know is to rely on God. To tell the truth, i really dread going back to campus, and i am reluctant to face all these responsibilities ahead of me... i feel stressed up whenever i thought of any of these things, as long as they are not settled...haiz.. lesson learnt: NEVER just say Yes, Ok, No problem...ask for time to consider



 Holiday=no holiday... but what else can i do??? haiz... GO back , face the problem, settle it and Move on... Pray that God will grant me the strenght that i'll need for this long battle.. Amen. ^^

long long hols!!!

so fast, i've already been in JB for 4 months... and i never left this place, not even once... surprisingly :)

i may have many plans before this, but i only manage to do some of them... kind of regret that i hadn't spend my time more appropriately ==

most of my time has been dedicated to my family, where i was 'Maria' for 4 months... helping with household chores like sweeping, mopping the floor; washing, hanging and folding the laundry that I'm getting so good at these!!!

at night, i would be in front of the screens... be it my laptop or the tv. Logging into Facebook almost everyday, reading theStar online; watching the 10.30pm drama on astro shx....etc

is that how i spent my 4 months???!! i couldn't believe it myself.... i've been living like this, for 4 months!!! add another 1 more month, and i'm going to be crazy....@@

well, of course, i did some other things too.... like...

cooking!!! not the usual cooking which uses the stove, but with the RICE COOKER... haha that's what we used to do at the hostel. At home, it was the only way to cook, after i kind of 'ruined' the only pot at home which can be used on the induction cooker.... haiz :( nevertheless, this rice cooker worked fine for me...

this is barley + 'fuzhok'... the usual dessert our seniors cook for us in campus, or sometimes we cooked ourselves...^^ 

i did some beadswork too!!! a senior taught us the basics after our pro1 exam... there were so many patterns he could make, the cross, hearts, snowflakes, etc...but i just managed to learn one or two from him. :( since i'm a bit slow in arts&craft...

and.... i finally completed a cross-stitch work my aunt asked me to do. this project took 3 years to be completed. oh, or should i say, 3 long holidays--which include my post-spm break, post-matrix break and also this post-1st year break... haha^^ so glad that i managed to finish it!!!

so many things happened within this 4 months too..!!

watched 2 movies-- harry potter and the smurfs. although, it might be 2 'only' for some of you, but 2 is a lot for me, since i seldom watch movies in cinemas... and and.... yesterday, i managed to watch Smurfs in 3d!!! it's one of the thing in my holiday to-do list... i'm so happy!! :) watching 3d is just do different from 2d, everything seems so real...the characters were popped-out from the blurry background....and with technology so high like this, it costs us rm17 per person. but i feel that it's worth the while... chose the right movie to watch in 3d^^

mummy changed her car-- luckily i still get to drive my mum's kelisa when i came back for my hols.  a month after i came back, mom decided to change it for a myvi. coincidentally, perodua launched their latest model at that time, so we were the first few in this area driving the 'new' myvi... too bad we couldn't get the purple colour, but this pearl white is quite nice also.. :)

went out with long-time-no-see friends!!-- with yamnee, kim, warnling+george... it's so hard for us to meet up, with busy schedules, transport problems and everything.. it's a great blessing to be able to have lunch/dinner with them again... going back to the 'craziest', 'childish' times we once had when we were in high school...oh, and almost forgot the brief meet-up with yinsan & susan that day at citysquare...^^

learned how to drive-- or rather 're-polish' my driving skills which will be once again be kept away until the next time i come back to jb. i've already renewed my P to CDL, but for 'safety' reasons, ahem ahem... the P sticker was transfered to the new car too... hahaXD mom really has the guts to let me drive her new car!! and allowing me to drive... heee ^^

celebrated daddy, melissa... and MY birthday at home!!heehee... luckily i'm already at home, that spared me from all those mischievious acts those people in campus could ever think of... hahaha XD

i took this... nice leh Xp

also, kimmy got a scholarship to continue her law degree in London!!-- felt so proud of her.. wow!!that was like great news to me!! :) she'll be flying off to london soon, and won't be meeting her till next year july...

and and... yamnee just registered into UTM today!!!-- after all those 'last-minute' work, she finally got herself there... hope that orientation week won't be too hard for her :) busy lady hardly gets any rest wor...

*looks like it's going to be hard for us to meet again next time... :( will be missing you all... all the best ya!!

well, there goes 4 months, all in 1 post... i shouldn't be so lazy though Xp

next saturday... i'm going back to ulu-land... sad?? happy??? excited??? perhaps a little bit of each.

busy days are coming soon, and i really wished that i could enjoy these last few days of this holidays... i guess i won't be regretting that i didn't rest much during this hols. i must admit that i'm overdosed on sleep.

i shall work hard when i get back to usm!!! but not now ya.... haha

done!! so-long........

in the process of rotting

hey!! so fast, i'm already in Jb for a month... i wonder how did i spend my time during these few days at home?? nothing much, just eat, sleep, watch drama, go online-- facebook most of the time... haiz, i'm really going to waste away

so, another 3 more months?? i don't really plan to get a job, any ideas what should i be doing then?? haha...

after staying at home for so long, and getting used to the daily routine at home really makes me feel lazy to get out of the house.

last thursday, i finally got out of the house and went out with kim and yamnee!!! also, it was my first time stepping into KSL shopping mall!!! first time, after they opened a few weeks before chinese new year... and the three of us went to get our hair cut...

kim's hair was already short enough, but she wanted a new hair style; yamnee, working for popular book fair at KSL at that time, was undecided to get a hair cut..but she still cut it though..i

tadaa!!! our new hair styles...



there isn't much changes in my hairstyle though, just wanted it to be short, no ideas of other hairstyles, even though kim insist that i should cut some style into my hair... :p

hmm... still looking good after my brain stayed dormant for one whole month..

i guess it won't be long before it shrinks... :S should really do some useful things from now on after resting for so long already, and also cut down my time in front of the tv since, the electricity charge has already increased... haha

Phillipians 4:13

''I can do all things, through Christ who gives me strength''-Phillipians 4:13

the dreaded, scary professional 1 exam has officially ended with the announcement of the results last thursday... phew, what a relief. i passed!!!! all glory to the Lord..

actually, i already knew that i'd passed my exam last tuesday, 2 days before the actual results day.

that day, it was supposed to be the announcement of the names of the students who got VIVA, as they need to go for an interview to select distinction students among themselves.

I really didn't expect my name to be on the list... that time, i was in the midst of learning how to make beads heart from gabriel together with rosalind and wanxi. suddenly i received a message from eunice, who told me the news... hmm , i wonder how did she found out about it, as she had already graduated and went back home a week ago... she must have her spies somewhere around in campus.

i didn't believe her at first, and decided to walk all the way to the academic office to check. i couldn't believe my eyes the moment i saw my name among the other 18 candidates... huh?? do i deserve this result???i wonder...

that night, i was caught in a dilemma... should i go for the interview?? hmm.. maybe i should just go for the experience. then again, should i reviseor should i continue watching drama??? i actually went through some of the notes... but suddenly my throat wasn't feeling well, and my head aches due to insufficient sleep the few nights before, so i went to sleep. to tell the truth, the few nights after exam, i was more hardworking than during exam, i slept very late.. almost 4am every day, watching drama... haha

next morning, i went to the interview with a calm mind... hmm.. i don't expect much, just attend for the experience only...

erm... by the time of the interview, i had already forgot most of the things i had study before this... and this is a one-to-one answering questions, with not much time for me to trial-and-error....too bad.. so, i smiled through the interview. the interviewers were quite nice to me too.. i thought they would scold me if i couldn't answer their questions correctly...

well, i tried my best... even though i knew very well that i wouldn't get distinction. ^^

phew!!! finally, it's all over already.. and i can move on to second year. and i'm most grateful that i'm not going up to 2nd year by myself, but most of my friends made it too!! ^^ i really thanked God for that...

too add to the joy of finishing our professional exam, we went for a trip at Pantai Irama, also to celebrate carmen and renling's birthday...

enjoying sea breeze and shouting out loud to relieve stress!!!

this is the kind of picture we always try to get everytime we go to a beach... i'm so glad that i could capture this photo.. and also another one^^

finally, all in all... without HIM, i know, all these would be impossible.

this time, it's really an exam by faith. i didn't finish reading all the notes in this whole year... in fact i left out most of the topics in Endocrine Block.. but still, i passed my exam well...

emm.. i shall end my post now, there's really a lot to say though.. i shall make full use of this coming 4 months to tell more of my life as a JB student in Kelantan^^ haha

1 year in school of medcine USM

thinking of medic as your first choice undergraduate course?? is that what you really wanted??

hmm... i'm sincerely urging you to think this twice.. initially i also thought that it wouldn't be that tough, but after getting a taste of it myself, it's really not easy!!! ==''

a few weeks ago, usm held their interview for the next academic session. that time, we medic 1st years were having our second week of study week, while our 5th(final) year seniors were having their 3rd professional exam, passing which would add another 2 letters in front of their name (Dr.)^^

it was around that time, we were so stressed out with our studies, and started to have ideas of advising our friends or younger brothers and sisters against choosing medcine...rosalind, staying opposite to my room said:''i'm going to tell them: DON'T take medic....because..'' and that same evening, while we were studying at PUMA (pusat mahasiswa) we saw xiangling coming with a friend we don't usually see him in campus.... He's coming for the interview on the next day... no wonder didn't see him before. ==''

xiangling was telling him the possible questions the interviewer would ask during the interview, and me and rosalind got into their conversation as well when xiangling asked us to share our questions too... ^^ that's when rosalind got her chance of 'scaring' the potential usmkk medic student... -- with the amount of notes we need to read(reading wasn't a problem... but read and remember it,it is... and she even brought out the Netter atlas and told him we need to memorise the whole thing... haha


(atlas and notes... all piled up on my bed.. no time to arrange pun, during exam--like battlefield)


(sini ada lagi--poor doraemon on the bed need to share space with the notes.. haha)

see, that's one year's stuff!!! maybe it doesn't look scary like this, but when you pile them up... hmm... that's scary :S and i did not have enough time to finish all of these before exam... only gone through one time after lectures, and then no more... i really thank God that most of those i was not in time to study did not come out.... He really guided me through this exam :) and also He has blessed me with concerned seniors who gave us encouragement throughout this exam week--eunice, carynn, gabriel, waiyen, sarah, may, jeeleng, johor seniors, cf seniors.... also our 1st year friends...family members...and many more ^^

meanwhile, when our final year seniors heard that there were new batch of students coming for interview, carynn wanted wave from the 1st floor, telling them:'' Don't come.. DON't come...''haha... quite scary, the way she said it.... hmm, to quote from another final year senior, ''medicine is not difficult, but it's impossible to finish all within 5 years...what you learn before will come out in exam, what you never learn before will also come out...''--maybe that was for Professional 3 exam... but for 1st years, studying lecture notes would suffice.. but sometimes, reading extra books would help in understanding and memorising :) that's what i planned to do during the long 4 months break, bringing back Netter, Guyton, Essential Haematology.... etc^^ if you wanna have a look at them can come find me la... haha

i guess the biggest problem we faced during this exam was the trouble to memorise all the things in the notes... the things that i was quite familiar before i suddenly forget--blank and there were too many things in the syllabus that sometimes we get them mixed up... and the 'best' part was SEQ-short essay questions, we don't know what's going to come out... and when it does, we were given 2 sheets of blank papers, with the first one having a single line of instruction, e.g. with a diagram, describe the attachments of diaphragm... and we were expected to give 10 points for that question.... hmm.. if got study, can goreng-goreng... no study, how??

as for OSPE- station... i don't like their bell ringing.. we only got 3 minutes for each questions, and after time's up, the bell will ring in a super scary way!! it made me jumped out from my chair and my heart was in tachycardia for the first few stations( from the 1st rest station to the next)... and it can really make my mind blank... by the time i reach the next rest station, i can totally lean on the white board behind me...huff huff... this time we got 3 active stations- splinting for right forearm fracture- kantoi!! , measuring bmi of the subject given-- he's a little overweight, and the next was measuring blood pressure- 130/80mmHg... haiz... i skipped some steps though...

MCQ( multiple choice questions) the normally known as tembak-tembak... this was the last 2 papers... managed to read another few more set of notes before the papers... cranial nerves, fungi, bacteria... etc

and there's really too much to study.... the last few days, my head also pening already :( perhaps brain energy was depleted too easily, i was always hungry!!.. haha

haih, finally it's over... waiting for the results on Wednesday... ish, initially thought it will be out on Thursday, so i bought the Friday flight ticket... now got one more extra day at campus.. nevermind la, got extra time to pack :)

really pray that we will all be able to pass this Pro1 and get up to 2nd year... ^^

Now, it's the time to relax!!! hmm... but really lost sometimes as i could not think of a better way to spend my time here... =='' nak keluar, malas; dok dalam, tak de benda nak buat.... haiz miss those days of studying... ^^ i'll probably go back to library.... read newspaper or storybooks gua.. people will say i'm crazy if i went back there to study.. haha

klah, will be back in a weeek's time... once again, i can embrace the breeze of Johor Bahru!!! >< wink*