i'm survivng!!!

hey there :)

i've already spent 2 weeks here in USM kubang kerian.. i'm quite lucky today, as i can access wifi from my room.. normally there wouldn't be any connections, maybe there aren't many people online yet...so, i thought i'd update my blog when i have a chance to do so...

i was quite dissapointed at the sight of my room at first, when i saw that it was so smaller, 3 to 4 times smaller than my roon in kmpp... and then the toilet is soooo... haiz.. undescribable.. i thought that i would not bathe in that toilet at first.. but, still i have to bathe what.. and the place to wash clothes... tsk tsk tsk... many of the girls would rather use the washing machine than to wash their clothes there-- not me of course..

but all of these mindsets and perception changed right after i set foot in the kem Lata Belatan in Terengganu. first, we need to build our tents, though the 6 of us, all girls were like the fastest to finish setting up our tent, but, actually it doesn't look stable..haha.. however, it managed to hold on for 2 nights... and then the toilet problem again... there's a big pool of water in the toilet, and ya, we were supposed to mandi beramai-ramai!!! it's so awkward, even though i brought my sarung... so, i skipped. i didn't bathe for 1 day!! yay!! broke my record... many people didnt bathe too... so the whole tent of us stink throughout the night.. haha

we had many activities during that camp.. mainly ice-breaking activities. but the most exciting one was jungle trekking. we did that twice... one early early in the morning--2 to 3 am and one in the evening. the one in the morning was more of a walk in the jungle... but the evening one was very challenging. that's when i fell and got stuck in the mud and became very dirty...

maybe it was my shoes or maybe it was due to my clumsyness... while walking or climbing up a tree bark i slipped-- forgot to add that it rained earlier on... so that thing, and many of the areas in the jungle were quite damp and slippery... out of desperation, i tried to hold on to the tree bark, but maybe i was just too desperate, i think i grabbed it too hard... i was scared to imagine what would happen if i fell straight down... it's going to be so embarassing... and the result, i scratched my fingers... and elbow... and they bleed... when my friend exclaimed that i was bleeding, i tried to ignore it.... at least let me finish this first... and i slipped another time while i was getting on another tree bark... twice at the same place... ish... the 2 fascilitators the could not help but laugh... '' haiyo.. kali kedua ni!!'' aduh...i don't know where to put my face lor..

after that was the mud... i got into another embarassing moment there... we were walking in the mud when the person behind me touch or pushed me slightly... and i instantly lose my balance and..... wooo... ahhh.... eeeeee... i nearly fell down ...i struggled to get myself up... ut the mud was pullling me down... i took another few steps foward... and i get into a really muddy zone... i felt myself sinking.... the more i tried to get up, the deeper i went down... i finally figured out the logic-- don't move... but then... as i get deeper in, i was worried about that bendera in my pocket. it was an amanah given to each one of us during the start of the camp, and we were supposed to keep it and bring it out for any activity.,.. chor teng..i can hardly save myself, now i have to jaga that bendera pulak... too bad, it has to become dirty :p

then after that we have to climb a steep hill up to the top... there's a rope to guide us... one hand injured, one hand with bendera... how to climb??? i had no choice but to put the bendera in my mouth... hahaha... it's better no one saw the state i was in that day... and i was glad that i could made it out... thank God!! but i have to admit that it was the best experience i ever had... jungle trekking

we also had survival cooking.... each platun was given a live chicken and we were supposed to cook that for lunch. for each platun a muslim boy will slaughter the chicken while a non-muslim girl has to catch the chicken... unfortunately i was the one... i threatened them that i would let the chicken go if i was the one who catch it, but it was no use-- nobody dares to do it, while boys were not allowed. no choice, i went... i missed the first one... but managed to get the second one... it didn't struggle while i carried it... maybe it feels safe in my hands.. llallala.. i see other people struggling to manage their chickens... i can feel it's heartbeat.. thump thump... maybe it feels safe with me or it thought that i would let it go... so poor thing i thought of doing so, but in situations like this... haiz.. there's no way :( sadly i handed the chicken over to ikhwan who was supposed to slaughter it.. (luckily, we don't have to do that part... otherwise it woultn't be halal)


after orientation, we started our lessons... first week, what we thought was going to be easy.. bioethics and social health... but then, the lectures were not easy to understand... especially the notes... seniors say we don't have to memorise too much for this block, but i'm just worried about the end of block assessment and selanjar 1... and phase 1 exam will have some of these questions too... in the most popular format-- essay!!! haiz


we got our set of plastic bones already and microscope... it's free but we have to share among 2 people..haha.. my partner was smart enough to ask me to carry the bones.. it's soooo heavy man!! and i just had an ATT injection that day.... again, thank god.. i made it safely to my room haha

there's a lot of tales to tell, but i don't have mush time... need to start studying...

Gambateh!!!!

end of holidays...

USM medicine.. here i come :) bye, holidays...><

tommorow, i'll be flying to kota baru for the second time this year... i'm not going for a short trip this time.. i'll be staying there for a minimum of 4 weeks, and i'm coming back again!! well, that's the only thing i'm looking forward to, at least, for now...

kelantan is too far away, and the flight ticket isn't cheap, and i'll spent almost 1 day to come back home.. ( have to transit at kl) that's why i can only come back during holidays... and the one great advantage usm has, is the convocation break 4 weeks after the start of the year!!! yay!!

orientation will start as soon as we enroll into uni.. i am relieve that raging is strictly prohibited in usm during orientation week, but i expect the seniors won't be too easy on us either :(

i really enjoyed myself during this short holiday... watch several tv dramas in one day, high speed internet, and watching Winx club season 4 on youtube, until episode 24 though, the rest aren't uploaded yet...

finally, i finished packing today... just need to go through the things again tonight. will be flying off early morning tommorow... bye :) will miss everything in JB from my family to my home, to the dogs, to the air, and most importantly.... the RAIN!!!!! there was quite a heavy rain this afternoon... haiz hope that there will be rain in kelantan... ( i've decided not to send you some rain clouds to UM, Pauline!!! you'd made me really mad at you!!! and you know why!!)

so long... till we meet again 4 weeks later..

will try to update about lifein USMKK... but that is, if they do not block blogger...haha

oouch again!!!

my right toe is swollen now...

see?? it got hit by a fully filled 500ml handwash yesterday evening... immediately after the impact, my toe started to swell and the pain was excruciating!!! i almost screamed... but it was too painful too scream...sob sobz

why?? why?? WHY???!! why didn't i see that the handwash bottle was falling down... the tip of my finger hit the top of the bottle, thinking that it would fall, i turned around to see...i saw it standing there...so, i proceeded to take another bottle out from the plastic bag... and them ""PomP'''' that purple colour bottle fell on my feet... i couldn't avoid and by the time i realise, it was all too late.. my toenail change from white to red then to blue almost within a minute.... i was terrified!! and for a split second i didn't know what to do....but after a while, i saw no blood coming out and decided that there's nothing i could do now.... except for bearin with the PaIN!!!!

perhaps my pain treshold level is lower... for that whole night i was whining in pain... applying cold compress.. and pitifully we only have 1 at home.(luckily we have one) haha.. the freezing coldness of the pack numbed away the pain... but after a while, when the pack approaches room temperature, it loses its effect, and i was left crying out in pain again

anyway, it can't be undone... i shall bring this whole swollen toe to USMKK and have it treated....haha

there's another one of my lame theory... the pain in my toe is directly proportional to the pain in my heart.. is that true??

my heartache wasn't from any typical reasons of heartaches ( break-ups or whatsoever).. but it was from the fact that most of my friends are going to UM and UKM to pursue their undergraduate studies...medic, dentistry, pharmacy etc.. Like i say before, it's all on Facebook!!

Anyway, there's little chance for me to meet any of them again... maybe next time when we all start to work...and many will start to have ideas of free services from their friends... prospective doctors, pharmacists, dentists, dieticians, lawyers etc... however, most of them are future doctors i guess..

to tell the truth, i felt bad at first that i'll be going to USMKK.. just because of the cupboard issue in their 3 per room hostel.. haiz (do you call that silly??) but after a few days i accepted the fact that i'll be going to USM no matter what... if i have to share a cupboard, just share lor... all i need to do is to find a way to keep my money and laptop safe haha... other than that, studying at USM shouldn't be any worse than studying at UM or UKM.. right?? afterall, it's an APex Uni. who knows 5 years later, we USM graduates will be better than UM or UKM graduates?? haha....

anyway, that theory i had wasn't true at all, just joking with my mum and sis.. haha.. but the pain was really.. arghh!! i don't know how to explain.. it robbed me of my sleep last night...and applying the already warm cold pack was of little use... too bad haiz

thank God, the pain subsided a little today.. perhaps i could get a good night's sleep tonight.. haha but it's still blue-- my favourite colour!! yay!!

1 more week, 1 more weekend...and i will be off to a faraway land...

better get ready!! gambateh....^^

What's up??

wow, this is the first time after so long i stayed up sitting in front of this laptop... and the reason--38 about which uni and course other people get... haha

actually the official results will be announced tomorrow, but it seems that some very smart people found the link to make things faster... they can actually start to check their results today.. the results were actually hidden somewhere in the upu's website, why can't they just announce it sooner, keeping all of us in suspence... but too bad, i'm not one of them who was kept in suspense, i already knew where i'm going half a month ago.. haha. thanks to USM

while people were still waiting for their results, i'm already halfway preparing to go to USM... buying clothes, and other necessities... formal clothes and casual wear... and shoes and blaa blaa blaaaa what else?? another 1 more week and afew more days, and i'll be flown to a faraway land.... to a whole new place with absolutely new experiences, a bunch of strangers.... and lotsa studying to do....

i should be glad that i got the course i wanted-- medicine no matter in which university... USM is a better choice than UMS or UNIMAS... i think

unfortunately, one of my best friends in KMPP didn't got the course she wanted... why did so many people choose pharmacy?? she ended up getting biomedical science in UPM.. haiz... on the other hand, i already have at least 3 of my friends who are going to UKM for pharmacy, while there's 1 in USM...

also, it seems that a lot of them got medic in UM.. while some of them medic in UKM.. well, they can be considered quite lucky then... the 2 best universities in Malaysia!! haha... it was too risky an idea for me to put those two unis as one of my choice, that's why i chose sabah and sarawak... but looks like i was wrong... nevertheless, lets see in 5 years to come, which uni will be better...wahaha :D

tomorrow we'll be hearing more from other people... no need to ask them personally, just log inot facebook and all the beans willl be spilt....just post which uni n course u got, and within a few minutes, your notification box will be flooded with commeents on your post.... which will last for at least 2 days... haha all thanks to the advancement i technology nowadys...

speaking about technology.. what is taking USM so long to post us our offer letter... everyday i've been looking out for the postman.... but was dissappointed everyday haiz... waiting for snail mail to arrive is as nerve wrecking as waiting for any exam results....

i've been going out this whole week... patronizing shopping centres throughout Johor Bahru.. I'm going to miss them while i'm in Kelantan... tomorrow going out to Plaza Pelangi again.. my third time this week... let's see what i'm going to buy... haha

went to the optometrician just now... and i finally got an answer to my frequent migrain problems... well, it's due to my astigmatism and short-sightedness in my left eye.. no wonder with the new specs i hope that it would solve all these headaches... and off we go to study!!

anyway, congratulations to all my friends for getting your dreams courses in the universities of your choice... and to those who didn't get it, nevermind... accept what you got or maybe if there's a chance to appeal, go for it... otherwise, there's always other private institutions out there... but that is if you can afford... but all in all, it's not the end of the world, there's always another way out, if you e willing to find one... don't give up.. Jia you!! :)

there, a decision is made...

i didn't expect my waiting game to end so soon. The USM admitted list was announced today...there wsn't any tell tale sign, and everyone believed that they will announce on the 1st or 2nd of june.

i was both glad and worried when i knew i was offered a place in medic at USM... Glad because i can finally pursue the course i had wanted in a university i dreamed of going to, thank god!! but on the other hand i was worried that this isn't the actual result.... remember what happened in USM last year??? They mistakenly uploaded the list of students who passed the MunSyi test instead of the actual list of students who are selected... at that time, those students who thought that they had a placd in USM, but actually they don't and to make things worse, by accepting the offer from USM, their names were removed from the UPU pool... and in the end, they have no university to go to..... haiz Hope that the same thing doesn't happen this year. Furthermore, USM is supposed to be an APEX university.

I'm supposed to register on the 3rd of July.. i guess i still have about a month's time to enjoy life at home. I kind of dislike this feeling....

looking at the list and ecspecially the timetable during orientation week, it reminded me of the times and sufferings i had during the orientation week in KMPP... i can't even rest!!! this is kinda scary....!!!!

whatever it is, it's too late to change my mind now.... afterall, it is the path God had chosen for me... i didn't expect my performance during the interview could let me get a place in USM...

unlike last year, this year i'm going even far north...Kubang Kerian, Kelantan.. AAAAAHhhhhh!!!!! but what to do, their health campus is over there.... haiz luckily it is near to the airport, i can always fly!!! haha

this means, no more time to play anymore... have to start preparing both mentally and pysically--trying not to get sick this time.. hahahahah