no time to lose...

i'm going to make this post as short as possible. after this, i'm going to shut down my laptop and start STUDYING!!!

there's so much to study!!! piles of lecture notes, since last last week.. i haven't even begin glancing through those, i got some more today. seems like i have to speed up--from 1st gear to 5th gear now.. another few more weeks to my Selanjar1, but that's after the raya break; something to rejoice, but at the same time, not a good idea, because that means that i can't even relax when i'm at home!!! no outings!! no gossiping!!! no shoppings!!! argh!!!!

however, as life gets busier, the days in USMKK seems to passby faster... i think i'm starting to get used to this place.. but i'm still frequently complaining about the hostel, ecspecially when it's hot, no water... and black outs!!!! haiz... i even thought of 'migrating' to the other hostel which is quite far away from the faculty. but seriously, i don't mind walking the distance for a better environment. The only thing that is stopping me now is i'm worried about my chances of getting a room next year, because nurani is infamous for 'kicking' people out; on the other hand, my murni seems safer :) and also, if i were to change room, i will have new roommates to get used to.. and to adapt to their living styles..... haiz... ''if changing rooms is going to be easier.... haiz...''

study, study, study... that's what we all do nowadays.. luckily i've settled the WUS project--sales. never did i imagined that our group would get profit from selling the things we did-- second hand magazines, books, comics, colouring pencil and books , necklace and bracelets.. YAY!!! Thank God!! we got profit... at first, i just prayed that we wouldn't lose money, just hope that we could earn enough money to cover the cost.... but miracolously, we managed to earn RM44.50. even though it's just a small amount, but we were contented :)

now, we have community service pula!! it's time to prove our reply during the interview.
interviewer: why do think you want to be a doctor?
interviewee: because i like to help people ma.....
now, prove it!!!!

but that's after selanjar... put that one on hold first...

tommorow, there'll be a gathering with the Johor seniors.. haiz i didn't prepare any presentations to present leh... sure they will try to ask us to do something to humour them >< i die liao la!!!!! maybe i'll have stomachache or anything tommorow.... i don't feel like going!!! i'm not the only one, all the first years didn't want to go also.. hahhaha.... reason: we want to STudy!!!! and knowing what we would think, the seniors had warn us against bringing any notes to the gathering... haha smart!!

tommorow's friday again.. going to church!!! heehee :) i felt excited going to church and cf... i don't know why... maybe it's that sense of belonging... going for cell group dinner isn't that stressful as going to a johor gathering.. haiz ==''

ok.. i guess that's all for now... 2 more weeks, and i can go home for RAYA!!!! haha

sigh...

things didn't turn out to be as bad as i imagined... it turned out that my WUS group members were so helpful :) i didn't realised it earlier...

now i'm not so pessimistic about that project anymore. the fact about we can't change what is boud to happen, but we can always change the way we think about things.. is quite true after all :D it is the mind that's controlling what we are... it is the mind that tells us whether we can or cannot do it... i have experienced all of these before... ecspecially the part about doing something that i thought that i coudn't do..but when i changed my mind all the impossibles became possible... ^^ but when i don't feel like doing anything, and just shut my eyes and mind and go to sleep.. and nothing will be accomplished.. heehee.. (by sleeping, it's my only way of getting away from all the problems that i'm reluctant to solve)

it's not so bad afterall!! once we got the stuffs, we can now sell!! haha.. but that's the biggest headache, but nevermind, i know the whole gang of 6 people, we, will be able to get this solved together :) gambateh!!! it's team spirit we need ^^

i also have my jiejie in the same group as me.. heehee

as you all know i don't have any elder sister.. but we're sort of related... since she's older than me by 1 year, so she's jiejie.. haha it's good to have her around...at least someone close that can rely on ><

haiz... another 1 more day at jb... will be leaving jb on saturday afternoon.. to be honest, i don't really feel like going back.. why?? i don't know.. what scares me the most there??

we have..

-de CHARLIE to thank for!!! i thought i had escaped the clutches of the vengeful Charlies in kmpp..

- the toilet!!! water small.. bathe halfway no water...

-and other reasons i also don't know.... it's a kind of fear, but i don't know what is it... who cares?? haha

anyway, it's what i had always wanted-- study medicine in USM ( i always thought that it's in Penang) haiz... so, like i said just now, just change my perception on studying in kelantan

Kelantan is nice.... kelantan is the best!!!!
Kelantan is SERIOUSLY nice!!!!
USMKK is a nice place..!!! nice scenery!!!!...
NO POLUtION= LiVES lonGer!!

to talk is always easier than to be done.. maybe in this case, more time is needed.. phew==''

vexed..==''

why?? WHY??? WHYYYYYY???!!!!

why do we have to do that project??
why must we need to pass that subject in order to graduate??
why is that subjected integrated into our syllabus??
why is it compulsary for us to take that subject???
why would i need it when i don't even plan to do any bussiness later, not even setting up a clinic????

I don't want!!! don't want!!! don't want!!!

to make it clear, the subject i'm talking about is Entrepreneurship...

i'm so stressed out about this thing, the project we were supposed to do under this subject--do bussiness!!!! we were supposed to set up our own stalls on a given day, and then sell our own stuffs.... before that we were divided into groups of 6 to 7 people. and to be lucky enough, i was chosen to be the group leader. and you know what the group leader has to do?? --anything your group members don't do, you have to do it!!!! that's why i don't like being the leader!!! and now, i have no choice!!!! i don't really know whether they were being kind to me, or were they just pushing that extra tediuos job to me :(

i can't explain this worry feeling inside me..

what if..
what if... people don't buy the things we sell
what if... people were not interested in what we are selling
what if... we don't make any profit
what if... we fail, and have to retake
what if... they blame me for that ???????

it was all my idea to sell those things...
to sell second hand comics/ storybooks/ novels; to sell colouring books; to sell colour pencils; keychains and stuffs...

it was only when i came back that i found that selling second hand comics would be a problem... because i only have 5... (i don't remember where the rest were, but i might be able to cover it up with novels and storybooks)... what about colouring books and colouring pencils?? we have to buy them first, and then sell them... but where to get it cheap??? and keychains... how am i going to find a wholesaler????

HOW???!!!!

haiz...
God.. please help me!!!! guide me through this project..

may people buy our products
may we earn some profit, not for us to spend, but just to pass this quest...
may we pass this test...

this is just part of the subject...

next, we have to interview an entrepreneur-- luckily i got my aunt!! :) but that's only 10% of RP(rancangan perniagaan, they call it) later we have to come out with some rancangan based on the info we got from the interviewee... i also don't really understand... let me get some info first, then later i can straight away carry on with the report.

and... despite all these stressful assignments, we still have ujian and quiz!!!

haiz... i really don't like this... but what to do??

life must go on... after the storm, comes the sun... after the sufferings, comes the joy.. and most importantly --some rest!!! haha

but that's after 1 year.... luckily we don't have this subject anymore next year... phew==!