Indescribable feelings

Well, i really do not know how to start with this post, because, my feelings were all jumble up... confused,dissapointment, sad and loss.... want to know why, read on!!!

First of all.. the exam results came out today. So, i got second. It's actually no big deal, but to tell the truth, dissapointment sure set in. If not, i can be said as inhuman already.. haha. That's because, after putting in much efforts, with nights of insufficent sleep, i would hope for the best in the exam. I'm sure everyone has the same feelings too, right?

Well i'm not as sad as this lah... haha

Well, this is the first situation..

Next one, My dog passed away already. Another one in four months time. Boo Hoo Hoo!!!!!

Cathay, Johor, Rain and now, Siang Siang.

However, i should know that it's about time for Siang Siang to go already.. Its very old already. About 15 years, but for dogs, you have to multiply by 7 to get their actual age.. right?

By the time i reached my aunt's house after i came back from school, i saw Siang Siang lying on the floor, with newspaper covering it. Before that, Second aunt told me and my sister about its departure at midday.

What hurted my heart most was when my aunt describe the moments before it 'leave'. It was like crying out... was it in pain? Poor thing.. Luckily i was in school at that time, otherwise i would break down in an 'ocean' full of tears..

Again, i know that another one of my beloved dogs is now in a place where there is no more sufferings and pains... another one sob, sob...

Looking at it lying on the floor, not moving, not even breathing, a mixture of 'who knows what' feelings feel up every possible space in my heart.

Well, i felt like crying like this now...

After violin lesson, i went to take a nap. Guess what? I dreamt of Siang Siang. When i woke up, i found that i was sweating and my eyes were wet. Was i crying? oooo.. i did not know.

Thats it, what an indescribable day....

But anyway, Thank God... for giving me this day..

Conclusion

Life is full of challenges,

it may be difficult sometimes,

and sometimes you may want to end it as soon as possible;

however we have to know that,

we were given a chance to live on this earth,

not for as long as we want,

but God decides when we will leave this beautiful place,

it is not up to us to decide,

who will live longer,

just because we like them;

or who will leave sooner,

just because we dislike them;

We have to accept whatever the results or the outcomes are,

Not blaming who and who for the unwanted results;

Treat it as a lesson,

where we learn new things,

discover new tricks and strategy to live life the fullest;

Remember that,

life on this earth will end one day,

sooner or later;

therefore, we must live life the fullest,

make it a beautiful memory,

unforgettable, colourful,

and wonderful,

that those who know us will not forget...

Tag!!!!

OMG!!! was tagged by buddy cum friend Kim!!! I can't say whether it is a blessing or not??? cos i don't even have eight people whom i can tag!!! Anyway, i will just answer the questions there. Is it ok, Kim?

1. Who is your all-time inspiration?

*Florence Nightingale (her care and concern towards patients)

*Richard Clayderman (the way he plays the piano)

2. Where is the place you want to go most?

* Afghanistan...haha

3.If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?

*World peace??? maybe...

4.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

*absolutely yes!!!

5.What are you afraid to lose the most now?

*everything i have in hand now

6.If you win $1 million, what would you do?

* buy a house, go on a tour, donation....

7.If you meet someone that you love, will you confess to him / her?

*maybe

8.List out 3 good points the person who tagged you.

* cheerful( sometimes)

* good leader( i think...)

* can sing! and very good at that....

9.What are the requirements that you wished from your other half?

* Thoughtful

* not someone fierce, i mean someone like our 'beloved' Cik Aminah

10. Which type of people do you hate the most?

* people who cheats

* corrupted ones

* those who think they are very 'big' just because they are rich... i mean, in chinese, hao lian...

11. What is your ambition?

* to be a doctor when i grow up... so that i can find cures to diseases that are uncurable now.

12. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?

* point it out to me, but politely and indirectly

13. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

* my family, and my dogs

14. Are you a shopaholic or not?

* nope

15.Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.

* I would say, childish

16.If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?

*scary cat character

17.What's the last shocking thing you have ever seen or heard?

* Siang Siang is going to die.... maybe tommorow....

18. What is happiness?

* A kind of feeling that make you feel better when you are down, and makes you laugh or smile.

19. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?

* Kim- she has very good experiences

* Yam Nee- she's well known as a tiger, to scare away bad people

* I don't have a third one.... haha

20. Have you ever been in love?

* Absolutely not and hopefully NEVER!!!!

p/s: i'm not doing the last part.. paiseh leh.. haha

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I done! haha.

Nite Nite...

The Last Day of Hols

Wow! Time really flies!!! The so-called 'long' March Holiday is over.. How i wished i could slow down the time... How i wished that i need not go back to school..... But its impossible!!!! That's LIFE!!!!
Heee.... found some cute pictures....


Kim, watch out!!! Hope that you get sufficent sleep... otherwise... heehee




Yam Nee, that's you!!!! wahahaha....




Warn Ling, many people call you mushroom, but i still prefer to call you green vegetable.


Ee Leng, don't know why and how you are called cat.

Besides, i found some dogs too. My favourite pet. Lately, two new dogs came to my aunt house, Toto and Rain( intially called Happy) . However, Rain died a few days later. Poor Rain.. Poor me too. Not long before, another one of my dearest dog, Johor, departed, because of spleen cancer, and then, Rain. Today, i went to my aunt house and saw Siang Siang, aka Nai Nai, it was so old and weak. Poor thing. Something is wrong with it. Maybe its time has come.....

On the other hand, Siang Siang was the strongest dog among the other dogs there. It survived many times, after being seriously ill and infected with maggots. It is an very old dog. Some described that it can be mummified already. There were some who said that it is an antique. haha. Anyway, Jia You, Nai Nai! Gambate!

My First Time........

Wow there's really quite a lot of "first time" for me yesterday .. ( sounds a bit sua ku)

Yesterday was Tiger's birthday!! Happy Birthday Tiger!!!!!

I have to say that tiger has a very big face... i know what you are thinking, but its not that.... i mean in chinese, "mian zi" because, i actually attended her birthday party at City Square.! I've never attended anyone's birthday party before, so Tiger, you should actually be glad about that.And also that lucky Wei Hong who also celebrated his birthday with Tiger yesterday, because his birthday is also in March..haha.

But on the other hand, i'm not quite fit for partying yesterday. I was not feeling well, and tiredness made me feel worse.

For your information, this is my first time going out with my classmates, without my parents beside me, and its quite scary you know. Plus i felt bad leaving my sister alone at home, while i get to go out and have fun. heehee, but i think she doesn't mind lah. So, no matter how, no matter what, i had to make this a memorable first time outing.

After physics tuition, the four of us, Tiger, Kim, Weng Shan and me, set off to CS. Tiger's mum drove us there. Its my first time going to CS after so many years. Everything in CS feels different to me now. Guess what, Tiger brought along her nephew, which was described as her 'BAG'. LOL.We went to Macdonalds first, where all the other class mates were waiting. Wow, it was sooooo cold in CS. I regretted for not bringing my jacket. That's why, I hid behind a large Madonalds poster. hahaha.

When everybody arrived, almost everybody, we went to the cinema to buy tickets. Kim was the one who bought the tickets. When she told the guy that she wanted 24 movie tickets, the cashier looked shocked. haha. Maybe this was his first time seeing someone buying so many tickets.

After getting the tickets, we went to the Food Junction for lunch.I bought my favourite claypot yee mee. That's what i will order whenever i go to Sedar Corner. But not yesterday. The claypot yee mee at Food Junction was delicious too.

Here's the Hello Kitty part. Jie Miin and the gang, came into Food Junction with a super-sized Hello Kitty, which clad in blue shirt, with a blue ribbon and a blue cap. It was huge. I think it could cover Tiger's nephew.haha. This was tiger's birthday present. i have a share in it too! Hee hee.

Tiger was shocked and looked happy at the same time when she saw this present.haha. I initially thought that she would bring this Hello Kitty with her into the cinema. But nolah, cos we did not get a ticket for it.

At about 2.30 pm we went to the cinema. This was my first time watching a movie with my classmates. However, you know what, the movie was an indescribable silly movie- The Death Of Ian Stone. Wonder whose idea it was to watch this movie. The ticket costs me RM6 , you know.

When the movie ended, Kimmy was shouting at the other end there, with a high pitched voice "walau-a" who knows how many times. haha. After i got out of the cinema, i followed Warn Ling and EeLeng. We separated with the others as we were going home. I do not know what the others did later.

EeLeng and Warn Ling brought this first timer, that's me, to the bus stop. We went the second floor exit, which led us to the overhead bridge. However, it was raining heavily. So we went back into the building and walk around to kill time. Ee Leng wanted to see her stuff, so we accompanied her. After looking at the things she wanted to, without buying any, we felt that the rain had stopped. So, we went to take a look. Thank God! It had really stopped raining. So, we went to the bus stop, to take a bus. Shifu EeLeng told us that every bus here can bring us home. We boarded the bus with a roof shaped like a house. It's been a long time since i took a public bus. This was my first time after how many years later.There were no more bus conducter to collect money and give out tickets. All i need to do is to put the money into a box beside the driver seat and the ticket will come out from a machine. Amazing!

The bus moved along steadily an the road. The seats were full. There ws this shelfish man who took two seats, one for himself and the other for his stuff. At that time there was this old man who was standing beside our seat and behind the shelfish man. I actually thought of giving up my seat to him, but the three of us were sharing two seats. That's why we couldn't help. There were some kind souls on the bus too. A lady gave her seat to an old lady. And a man did the same too.

When the bus came near SMK Pelangi , Warn Ling got down the bus. When the bus reached Tmn Sri Tebrau, the busstop near Telecom, Ee Leng and I got down the bus. But, it was pouring cats and dogs. We couldn't go home. Lucky me! My sister called on time to ask where am i. So, mummy came and fetch us both home. Blame me for forgetting to bring my umbrella. Boooo!

That's it. My first time experience. Millions thanks to my parents and my aunts for allowing me to attend Tiger's party. heehee.

I did not bring my camera, so i don't have pictures here. haha. I think i will put some hello kitty ones to make tiger jealous. hahahahha

Happy Birthday !!! Tiger.

Friendship><

Just posting some of my thoughts during the holidays. At least i post something. haha.
What friends are for?
That's a title from a book i read when i was a child. It's a story about a bear and its friend, a fox. They were the best of friends. However one day, the fox disturbed the bear who was sleeping at that time. The bear became angry and didn't play with the fox anymore after that. The fox felt lonely and it hid in its tree hole and cried for days. As for the bear, a few days later it felt lonely for there were no one to play with. So, it went to look for the fox, and apologize. The fox ws glad thatit get its friend back. They promise that they will never leave each other again.

Yes, indeed, that's what friends are for.

Friends are the ones who give us comfort when we face problems;
Friends are the ones who give us support when others don't support us;
Friends are the ones who are there to lend us their ears when we want to say something;
Even though fights and quarrels happen between us and our friends, we will still patch up and forgive each other;
Friends are the ones that make us laugh when we feel down;
Friends are the ones that help us up when we fall down;
Friends are the ones that will share the good things they have with us;
That's what friends are for.....

I am glad that i have many friends, yes, many.
-Tiger, Kim, Warn Ling, Thanks for being my very best pals.... Thanks for making me laugh when i'm feeling down.............Pardon me for being emoish sometimes;
-Diana, Karen, Rachel Ng, Sarah, Thanks for being my confidante when i felt that i'm being left out;
-Weng Shan, Jie Miin, Jane, Soo Qing, Susan, Thanks for accepting me as your friend. HeeHee..!
-Bih Jin, Sing Yen, Thanks for being my friends too! Pardon me for being impatient sometimes...Hahaha!

It seems that i have done a lot of wrong, hurting things, that that's because i "wanted to be alone". Maybe that's when i am in one of my 'down' spirits.

I truly felt their concern for me and it made me feel that i haven't been a good friend....
sorry once again....

Conclusively, that's what friends are for....! Friendship Forever...

'Holiday Eve'

Tomorrow is the starting of a one week holiday! Yay!
Many things happened these few days and i long wanted to take a break from them.
First of all, test results...
these two words itself give people a kind of scary, nervous feeling, don't you think so?
So, i got back all my results, except for the morale paper.
I can't say i did well in this exam, because i did not put in much effort. This may be due to hours of television watching and playing and sometimes idling around the house, doing nothing. Before the announcement of the final rsults, i can't really make a conclusion on my achievements in this test.
Things were very different for my closest friend, Tiger.
Do you want to know what's wrong with her?
She thinks very lowly of herself. She thinks that she's bad in everything. As if in the whole wide world,no one has ever been as pathetic as her. Everyday, almost every minute, she kept my ears busy with her 'singing' that she will fail or get low marks in almost all of her subjects. I tried to comfort her, tell her the truth that she isn't that bad, but in vain. Poor me!:(
Although i failed to let her gain her self-confidence, thse are the things i wanted to tell her:
1) You are not stupid, as you can talk, laugh, think, analyse and do many other things. Think about the less fortunate! They can't even talk even they want to.
2)You are not fat! Albeit you kept saying that you are, and i don't think i can change your mind, but its not the end of the world!!!! In this modern era, fat is not a very big problem, as there are many slimming centre out there. And you can step into one if you still feel that you are fat.
3)You must have confidence in yourself. One cannot be no good in everything. You sure have your talents somewhere. Although you may tell me that you don't know your talents now, but it is there inside you. One day,hopefully you will discover a very smart you that you never think you are.
That's not all i want to say, but i'm afraid if i type it all out, it won't be one or two pages. Anyway, Tiger, Go For It! Success awaits you! Go GO GO!
Hee Hee!
When school reopens i will not be sitting next to you anymore, don't miss me ya? hahahaha:)