Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Putting up a strong front

well, it's hard for me to say it out loud this time, but it is a fact....I failed my driving test again mipo....so how? retake again lah....that seems to be the only way out. I felt really embarassed.. among my friends i'm the only lucky one to have the chance to retake my deiving test...up till now, everyone passed their tests one time round...phew...and me?? going around and gladly tell everyone i failed....wahaha...

I seldom do so badly in all the tests i took..except that i had failed my BM during primary 5.But this one was....terrible!! How i wished that i'd passed the first time, though it was just a small mistake that caused me to fail. This time was worse...after two weeks of not driving, i guessed i'd lost touch with my skills....the car didn't seem to move although i stepped on the accelerator and released the clutch...so what did i do? Step harder on the accelerator!!! wahaha.. what a joke....coming to think of it...i guess i should release more clutch right?? i'm not sure...so, everytime i stopped, i was struck by this dilemna....the car won't move, and when it does, it went vroom...speeding forwards...it wasn't like this before....and i don't know why...the d-moment came when i reached a junction and was supposed to stop. When i was ready to go, released the clutch and step on the accelerator...still the car won't move...this time, the engine died on me.... the examiner was getting impatient... i know...since the car move forward a little bit, over the spot where we were supposed to stop, the verdct: i failed....wahaha...

we swapped seats and he drove me back to Berjaya....at that time, i felt: what a disgrace!!! but i know that i can't just give up...!! i don't feel like telling anyone about this... the last time i went around telling everybody, but this time, i just felt...sad, dismay....despair....haiz...

That's the sad part of my story...i shan't elaborate on it....afraid that it might draw tears in my eyes... they are swollen enough already....due to days of insufficient sleep

Ok....today, i went for the JPA scholarship interview...

2nd aunty drove me there. Together we went with mumy and aunty Mary. When we reached Kluang, we stopped by aunty Moi Chai's house. Then together, the 4 of us went for lunch at Prime City hotel...wow!! the lunch was fantastic!! Mine was chicken chop with rice + a glass of orange juice, and guess what, it only costs RM7.90!! hahha...Thank You aunty Moi Chai for the lunch!!!!

Next, we headed for INTAN, where the interview was held. Registered and submitted the photocopied documents. i was placed at Panel 3, guess what?? i was the first on the 2pm list of Panel3 wahahah...mambo number 1!! We went into the interview room in groups of 5. My group consists of 4 chinese and 1 indian. So, we were greeted by 3 interviewers. We sat according to our numbers but only after we were asked to sit lah, i don't want to be rude. haha..

First, we were asked to introduce ourselves....of course, me was the first to start...so, i started off with my name, from JB, came from SMKST, my family members and my hobby....nervous??maybe not!! wahahha...

After the brief self introduction in Malay, we were asked to discuss a given topic in English. The topisc given was How to reduce dengue cases? so, the 5 of us gathered around and had a 2 minutes discussion. After that we were asked one by one to present our idea. .... blah blah blah.. Next, we were given another topic, but this time we need to present it in Malay....The topic was How to overcome the shortage of Specialis Doctors in our country?? in Malay lah of course.... but i just translate it. So, again we were given 2 minutes to discuss. After that, present. I did not take note how long did the interview last...after saying thank you and leaving our signatures, we went back to the waiting hall to get back our files.

Next, went back home...it's a long journey..plus the wheather was so hot too!!....hahaha but i'm quite satisfied with my performance today....haha..at least much much better than what happened yesterday....i feel much better now....

Whether i get this scholarship or not does not matter much to me, i'd known in the first place that it's quite hard to get this scholarship as the places available are limited especially courses like medicine...but it's the experience that i valued the most...at least, this time i wasn't as nervous as the time i went for the Taylor's Principle Awards interview.

ok, that's it for now....tommorrow's April fool!!...

Nitez n god bless

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Hari kecemerlangan

Went to school at 9am today for hari kecemerlangan....Had a chance to catch up with my friends...glad to know that they all had already made plans for their future, at least this is better than those...''i don't know'', ''see first'' answers.... hahha.. well, but there are still some who are still unsure of what they should do... haiz..

I forgot to take note of the time the event started.... but it started with speeches from the pengetua, Micheal Tay and YB Mok...to tell the truth, i wasn't paying attention to their speeches... because the echoes were just too loud... plus, they were really long and boring..... hahhahaha...

Finally, it's prize giving time!!! Got RM30.00 and a certificate.....quite satisfied though....hahhaha...Anyway, i didn't study hard just to get this money... hahhaha..

After receiving our prizes, we left for City Square..... KC drove us girls there...

Had lunch at Wong Kok...ordered a plate of mee and a glass of milk tea.... The food was nice, but i don't know why, i just felt nauseous....these few days i'm starting to have these feelings again.... stomachache...nauseous...and giddiness....i'm just worried that i'm again suffering from gastroentiritis, the so called stomach flu.....i'd just recovered from that last month....and it's terrible!!!!

After that, me, Kim and Yam Nee went to the washroom... and then we headed for popular because i need to help my sis to get a testpad.... Went to the testpad section, and chose one....the cheapest one of course.... haha... on my way to the counter, i caught sight of a few boxes of jigsaw puzzle a few centimeters away from the stacks of testpads......haha... went to take a look at them of course.... hahaa....ended up buying one for myself... because the price was reasonable, plus there was a 20% discount... and it has the picture of doggies.... wheee!!! hahaha

Went to meet the rest of them at the cinema.... but i don't intend to watch a movie...it will just be a waste if i bought a movie ticket..i might be sleeping throughout the whole movie for all you know...hahha..i'm so tired....my eyelids were closed to shutting....i can't even feel that i'm walking...floating perhaps,..... hahahha

Accompanied Yam Nee to buy her hairband...she couldn't find a bag she likes....failed to find a dress for herself too....

After spending for almost 2 hours at city square, me and yam nee went back home....by taxi of course...hahha..and you know what... we were cheated by the taxi driver... he actually charged us RM10, from CS to yam nee's house in Tebrau Jaya.....we looked at each other....puzzled...it used to be RM5 to RM7.....according to YN.....but we didn't say anything, just paid the taxi fare....

Mum fetched me from YN's house.....

Back home, felt sick....diarhoea again since yesterday...felt like vomitting....urgh.....maybe it's stress or something...just hope that it wouldn't be anything serious...i still had many things to do these few days....again reminding myself, i'm having my driving test this Monday,1pm and getting the pengetua's signature for the borang pengesahan pendapatan keluarga...JPA interview this Tuesday,2pm....haiz.... Hope that all things will go well...i don't want to repeat it again....

Anyway, today's Earth Hour...and we were supposed to turned off all non-essential lights from 8.30pm till 9.30pm....haha...i'd long waited for this day, but Daddy came back late, so, i had to leave some of the lights on....haiz... i thought of turning them off...but i couldn't lah...so, i just turned off those lights that we could do without them....

Ok, that's it for now....

Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor...5th Day

Finally, after 4 days... today's the last day of this program. Woke up at the same time and went downstairs for breakfast. I got a shocked when i noticed that my sister hasn't gone to school yet... You know why, mummy's car tyre deflated....unfortunately....

So, after breakfast and getting ready, daddy drove me there. As usual, met the other group members at the entrance of the main building and then proceeded to today's program--to the A&E department. The time we went in, the A&E was so cold and quiet because other than the doctors, nurses and one or two patients, it's just the 11 of us.... haha....After walking one round around the whole place, we headed straight to the bilik seminar...sat there and started gossiping...

3 cases came in after that. First, it was a baby. then there was a guy, i don't know what was the reason... and then a child.... Unfortunately, the doctors failed to save this child's life....standing behind the blinds, we could see that the doctors were performing cpr to this patient, each doctors had their chance of doing so....but sadly, after a few minutes her heart still couldn't beat on its own, the doctors also gave up.....and so....the monitors were turned off and all tubes were pulled out....Later, i saw the child's kins coming in...an MA lead them to where the child was lying, he seemed like he was explaining something to them....just so you know.

Whenever there was a case admitted into the resuscitation room, all of us will barge into the room also. I can feel that it is over crowded... but haiz...i can't be the odd one out.. so, i went in too... You know what, we were like a bunch of curious people, hanging around the curtains and tipping our toes just to see the doctors carrying out their procedures....

But coming to think of it, if i were the doctor, i wouldn't want so many people to see me working...haha...i can't help feeling like that, so i just stand at a distance, it doesn't matter if i can't see anything... haha... i just don't want to disturb the doctors.. or standing in their way... and i'm not surprised that they find us a hindrance and irritating.... hhhahaha...Again, the patients might not like it also, ecspecially those who are in pain or had difficulty in breathing.......imagining a bunch of people seeing you or rather staring at you while you had to put up a struggle to save your life.... i wouldn't like it.....the patients, normally those suffering from injuries.... they kept yelling at the doctors: sakit sakit... this brought my memory back to 11 years ago, when i had a few stitches on my right eyebrow after knocking right into a pillar... haha..i wasn't even crying when i entered the bilik rawatan... calm...as if i wasn't aware of what was going to happen.... then the doctor came, turned on the lamp...asked me to close my eyes... and then dabbed some ''don't know what is that'' liquid on my right eye.... after that, i felt something poking through my eyelid.. a few minutes later, the lamp was turned off and the room's fluorescent light was turned on.....i wasn't even screaming or anything....though it was quite painful....haha..here comes the funny part... haha... A maly doctor came in....he told me something like ''ant's bite....tak sakit punye''... how on earth am i supposed to know what's going on... so i just noded my head... then i saw that he was holding a syringe with a needle attached....aiming for my left arm...that time.. i still didn't know what he was up to....suddenly,, OUCH!! I felt something pierced into my left arm... and i went '' BOO HOO HOO'' hhhahaha.. i cried my lungs out hahahaha... and he was like :''haha.. nangis pulak tu, tadi kan cakap, ant's bite je..'' hahhahah... mom got a shocked too, she didn't expect me to cry so loudly, padan muka.... hahahah

After lunch, went to PGMC for the end of program taklimat. DR. Izzam gave a powerpoint presentation...group leaders gave their report....some students gave their testimonials...and then after getting back our borang kehadiran, we were allowed to go back....But before that we took a group photo....hhaha...

All in all, this program in a way, it's good... but again, it's boring sometimes, ecspecially those times when we were invisible to the staffs there.. but, we should understand that the doctors and nurses are also busy.... they can't just sit down and talked to us.... right?? but, i'd also gained some experience through this exposure program....at least i know the hospital quite well by now...i practically walked around the whole hospital already....hahahaha...

ooh, almost forgot, next monday's my driving test....hahaha.. not again!! hahha i haven't been driving since the last time i failed the test....haha wonder if i could make it or not this time.... pray that i would...hahha.. wish me luck!! This is followed by Tuesday's interview.... haiz...so, it's either going to the interview smiling, or looking miserable.... haha...it all depends on Monday!! hahahaha

oklah, that's it for today....i'm so tired....(yawn)

Nitez and god bless.....:)

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor.....4th Day

Today's the second last day of this program..... yay...in the sense that i don't have to wake up early after this wahahha..... but boo...because i'd just started to get myself used to this new environment... Anyway, the interview's next Tuesday.... am i doing any preparations??? Apparently, no... haha... i intended to blahhh my way through this.... perhaps....:)

So, as usual, went to the hospital before 8.30am....meet up with the rest of the group members before setting off for the urology clinic. So, we went to the Poliklinik first, but we have no idea where the urology clinic was. Luckily there was a sign board there and we found out that the clinic was at the third floor. so, we took a lift up there as no one wants to climb the stairs....reached the third floor, but then again, there were more clinics there.... the psychiatric clinic, skin clinic, dentist... and etc... as a result, we mistakenly went to the psychiatric clinic, and we saw a patient coming out of the doctor's room...he looked at us, confused, and then smiled and say good morning... we got a shocked, because at that time we weren't aware that we were at the wrong place... so, we also greeted him....good morning....hahaa

After that, we managed to find the place....sat on the chairs...and waited....A doctor there briefed us about his life being a doctor.. He told us that he had his medical studies in India... and also....the standard thing....'being doctor is not easy''....kind of thing...but he urged us to come back to serve in this country even though if we were sent overseas for medicine.... because our country is currently short of doctors or rather doctors working in government hospitals..haha...most of them either continue their stay overseas or opted to go to a private hospital...gaji lumayan, they said....haha....but to me, the money is not a problem....it's the passion that matters....haha

After staying there for more or less than 1 hour, we left the clinic and went to the children's ward... where we went yesterday..... Saw the boy we saw that day at the A&E, the one who had a broken leg after falling into the drain....we learnt more about the accident from his parents today...it was a hit and run case, involving a taxi... and the police are still investigating to find the culprit.... kelly was still sleeping at the time we entered the ward...but she woke up before we left, so we spent some time talking to her....she's better today, maybe because her mother and little brother was there....haha....

Next, we went to the cafeteria for lunch...an early one indeed....haha...half an hour earlier. On the way to the cafeteria, we saw a middle age lady....she stopped us and said she wanted to share with us something... so, she started talking. She had a leg injury, and had a swollen angkle or something, i wasn't paying attention because she was surrounded by the rest and i was squeezed right at he back..... after that i found a better spot and continued listening..... she actually went to a private hospital or a clinic before coming here to take an x-ray and for futher investigations... before i go on, her son-in law's a doctor also...so she told us that she went to see a doctor here and without looking at her injury nor taking an x-ray, the doctor just prescribed her some medicine....she was very unhappy about this. She doesn't intend to take the medicine prescribed for her and added that she wants to show her son-in-law.... haha... and we just listen, nod our heads... what she's trying to tell us is that, when we become doctors, we should not treat our patients like that, at least, we must examined the patients injury first before prescribing medicine, or letting them go out from the clinic without making a thorough checkup...and guess what, she called us young doctors.... (so, we looked like one ya??) hahhaha

Today's lunch break was long...because we came down earlier than anyone else. After that, we went to the PP1 ward, women's medical ward. Walk 1 round, blocked some people's way, messed around with the files before we came out...we make sure we did that in every ward we go... hahahahahaa...After that, we proceeded to Block D, men's wards. We did the same thing there also... and created more congestion in the already over-crowded wards..hahhaa

Finally we were allowed to go back....again, we were early by 20 minutes..haha

Tomorrow's the last day of this program... According to the schedule, tommorrow we are suppose to go to the A&E....I'm not sure if there will be any ammendments or not....but i hope not..haha

ok, that's it for today....

nitez and god bless

program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor...3rd Day

Woke up at 6.50 am.... wah.. my bed was so comfortable, so reluctant to get up... plus, i slept late last night.....yawn...

After breakfast, washed up and got ready to go to the hospital again... haha. Daddy drove me there.. According to the schedule, we were supposed to go to the plastic surgery clinic and the Timur 5 children's surgical ward today....

We gathered at the main entrance... 8.30am, we headed for the poliklinik. Today, we were more independant.. or maybe the group leader was. He brought us to the plastic surgery clinic and told the MA there that we were here for the exposure program....Well just beside us was the O&G clinic.. so there were many pregnant mothers walking past us.. and looking at us a weird kind of expression.... maybe they are thinking.. what on earth are these youngsters doing here?? hahaa

However, it was fun being at the clinic.... the medical officer (i forgot his name) brief us about the plastic surgery clinic, though he was supposed to be on leave today.... then introduced us to the surgeon, the MA and the other MOs in the clinic... Not forgetting the part that almost every doctor told us, being a doctor is not easy... especially during housemanship....blah blah blah...

We were allowed to observe the doctors doing their procedures in the clinic today.... there was one lady, she got operated on her face to removed a suspected tumour. The operation was performed a few days ago. I'm not quite sure of what they did in the begining, because i went in towards the end of the procedure.... when the doctor made a few stitches and then,....done!!

The next case, a Vietnamnese lady who got her finger injured during work. The skin on her second finger joint was tear of.... or something like that.. They used the skin on her abdomen to replace the skin on the wounded area. To do this, her injured finger was stitched on her abdomen to allow the skin to grow over the wounded area... and their task today was to separate the injured finger from her abdomen.....and so on....

Ahha, here's the most exciting part of the story..... Guess who i saw when i got out from the clinic?? hahaha..... Singapore Mediacorp actor, Zzen Chong... just in case you don't know who he is.... he played the charater, Robert Zhang in the Little Nyonya show. haha.... when i saw him for the first time, i didn't really realise that it was him, i just thought this guy was really familiar... and i know i saw him somewhere.... then, i turned again, stared longer.... this time he looked in my direction.... and i was like wah!! really it's him lah....he smiled... and probably thinking why is this silly girl keep looking at me?.....and there was these two girls who went and took a photograph with him.... hahhaa.... Well, its really unexpected that he'd come here....you know... but it turned out that he was just accompanying someone here..... i guess it's another malaysian actor.. looks like one though... hahaa.. but i only saw his backview.... hahha

Somewhere around this time, received a call from Pn Patricia, informing me to attend the prize giving ceremony this Saturday....and then Yam Nee's sms saying that she passed her driving test....haha

After that, went for lunch at the cafeteria.... bread again....

Afternoon session... went to the children's surgical ward..... briefed by a doctor there... the same thing lah... but this one was more encouraging, she told us that we will be able to overcome all difficulties in time to come, though it's not an easy job....We went from bed to bed.... asking the parents of the patients what's wrong with them....and they told us their story...

there was an baby, he was scalded on the face, poor thing, seeing his face all covered with goss.... then there was this baby, who undergo an operation to make a pathway for him to defacate, and then a chubby boy, Fuad, don't know why he was admitted, but he was sure a cheerful patient..... and then, this girl, Kelly... wah sei.... at first she was quite shy and didn't talk much..... asked what was her name, age and blah blah blah..... hahha... after that she became very talkative..... talk talk talk... using her bear and tortoise as props... acting and everything.... ahe speaks in chinese and so, only few of us know what she's saying....aiya, all in all she's a headache....both of us argued about some trivial thing some more... hahhahaha..maybe because i'm as childish as her lah... haha

After that, we went to the mortuary... so called jabatan forensik... we requested to go there... and request granted... hahha.. The smell from the mortuary is so strong.... you know, those kind of salted fish smell, luckily i was immune to it already. It's not that i have this kind of perfumes lah... haha.... but sometimes my house was filled with this smell too, caused by a dead rat or a fish at the backyard....so, everybody(almost) was pouring minyak kapak on pieces of tissue paper and covered their nose with it... haha..as if the minyak kapak smelled better... but i just can't tahan the minyal kapak smell, so i just beared with the already existing smell...never mind lah.... After that, we were brought to the a room where the bodies were laid temporarily there before their kin come and take them back.... we were in luck, as there was a body in there, and the Ketua opened the white cloth to let us see... kalau mak jadi doktor, kena kuatkan semangat he said....

Followed by the rooms where the bodies are washed and then sent to the family members....nothing much there.... and then there's the freezers.... where they keep the bodies. There's one compartment reserved to keep the amputated legs, i didn't asked what they are goin to do with them.... and then the Ketua opened two compartments for us to see how's it like inside the freezers.... both of them housing decomposed bodies....one of them is a police case.....
Later on, we went into the post moterm room... the Ketua explained to us the function of each tool, and explained the process of post moterm to us....

ok, that's it for today... i need to sleep already... don't want to go fishing tommorrow.... hahhaa By the way, we have the Urology clinic and the PP1 and PP3 wards to go tommorrow, seems boring to me.... but again, it's the second last day.. haha

OOoh, i was called to go for the JPA scholarship interview...31st march..2pm....haiz.....

ok, that's all, nite nite, god bless

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Program Pendedahan kerjaya Seorang Doktor...2nd day

Woke up 5 minutes earlier today.... i couldn't bear to leave my comfy mattress, blankie, pillows and bolster....they seemed to be pulling me back to bed..... but, i knew i had to get up....

Had two pieces of bread for breakfast, then got ready to go out, embarking on my second day in HSA. As early as 7.55 am, daddy drove me to the hospital. I was earlier by 30 minutes to the time we were supposed to meet. hahaa as usual.... It's always better to be early rather than late...right???

Since i was early, i took a stroll to the policlinic, a distance away from our meeting point.. btw, we were supposed to meet at 2nd floor of the east wing. So, i walked.... saw one of our group members there, his name is chong hong... (or something like that).. hahaa... blur me.... next time i'll be going around and say: that who lor or that guy/ girl lah.... those kind of stuff... i'm never good at remembering names..... hhahaa...

Went to the poliklinik.... look see look see a bit.....there were many people there....and i walked around, appreciating every corner of that place.... hahaa (like real) hhaha..... after that, i went to the meeting point.. i don't want to be late, you know... haha

After that, the whole group of us were supposed to go to the poliklinik.... the opthalmology clinic....i have no idea how they arranged things, but unfortunately, the opthalmology clinic was closed, they only handle emergency cases today. So, we went to the surgical clinic instead... 3 of us in a group went into a clinical room... there were two doctors in there.. a guy and a lady..... and they were kind of friendly, much to my relief. They asked us why we want to become doctors?? and again told us that it isn't easy being a doctor.... even though they are surgeons, they also had a busy and hectic life...... tried to make us change our decision... but obviously, things like this won't make me change my mind.... i like to busy, the best is that i can worked the whole day, 'rocking' around the clock hahhahha....but it's just that my body wouldn't be able to take it.... my heart will start to complain.... and my limbs will go on a stike... haiz...

Anyway, this was very much better than yesterday's idling aroung, hanging around and blocking other people's way.... hahha

After lunch, we proceed to the A&E department... haha.... had been anticipating for this moment to arrive. Wah!! There's a major change ever since the last time i came in....want to know why?? Because it's all air-conditioned... haha so cold inside there..like it!! In other wards only the ICUs have air con.... but here, it's all air conditioned!! Iiyo!!

Tuan Hj Ismail brought us to the seminar room for a short briefing, then another staff brought us round the whole A&E... The A&E is divided into the green zone (minor cases), yellow zone (semi-critical) and red zone (critical) and a blue zone.

Everything is happening in the red zone... haha.. also known as the resuscitation room. Here, the criticallly ill patients were stabilised before they were sent into the wards... there was this male patient who got involved in an accident. he would've suffer from fractured legs as a result but because he did not buckled his helmet properly, his head was injured during the accident.... it ended up his wound needed to be stitched back... but i missed this part... Because there were many people there, mostly people like us... haha, i gladly gave them the opportunity to see lah.... afterall i'd been through this many many years before...

After that there was a patient sent in for SVT- superventricular tachycardia....her heartbeat was so fast (as shown on the monitor)... plus the fact that she was allergic to adenosine which make things worse for her, so the doctors had to use another alternative method to slow down her heartbeat... i don't know what is it call..... hhaha

Meanwhile, there was this poor little boy being sent in. He was riding a motorbike together with his father.... met an accident when his father tried to dodge an incoming car...then he fell into the drain... at that time, he was heading to agama school....so, he was seriously injured.... somewhere near his right knee.... that layer of flesh was peeled off till we can see the bones inside... when the doctor lifted his leg, it seems like this leg is going to be broken into 2 parts if he didn't handle it well....and this poor boy was like... sakit doktor.. sakit!! and it seems like he kept wanting to see his injury, because i heard the doctors kept telling him to lie down, don't see aftwerwards vomit and blah blah blah....i shan't elaborate about this part.....hahha...

After this there weren't many cases anymore.... we went to the seminar room and started chatting away... there were 9 of us but only 2 girls did the talking... Manjula and another girl, i forgot her name, again... haha... but she's a Kaur lah.. the only thing i know about her. they told us about all their embarrasing moments... we laughed and laughed....but when they asked the rest of us to say something, we just kept quiet. My reason: i thought that my jokes weren't as interesting as theirs and i might just make the room even 'colder'.... so it's better if i'd just shut up.... hahha

Tonight, stayed on for the on-call. Had dinner at the kafeteria.... 3 doughnuts hahaha

Went back to A&E, there was a patient with i think its heart attack and another one i don't know... an indian lady was sent in because she had attempted suicide..... that's the only things that happened.. sensing that the doctors would be better off without us, we again went and sit in the seminar room again!! Started chatting again.. or maybe its listening hahahha

Ok, that's it for today... tomorrow we have plastic surgery clinic and the Timur 5 children ward..it's going to be another boring day.... haiz... but overall, today's program was not bad, had a great time today, especially getting to know my group members better....

Nitez, god bless!!:)

Monday, March 23, 2009

Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor... 1st day

I remeber mentioning that i will be going for this program... shortform PPKSD... and today.. i went!!! Strange.... I didn't felt as excited as before, on the other hand, i was worried.... no idea why.. hahhaa

So, as early as 8 am i mum sent me to the hospital.. It took us quite some time to find a parking in the public parking zone..... we went from one to anaother... but lady luck did not shine on us.....

Since mum's car has a HSA sticker, we tried the staff parking zone... the one mum used to parked her car when dhe goes to work..... We were lucky.... there were two parking lots there!!! hahaha.. should have gone there sooner....

After that, mum brought me to the ward where she worked.... A4 NICU.... although she's not working today.... she thought that the ward's sister might know something about this program and so she wanted to ask the sister where is the actual gathering place.....(as i had mentioned before that we were not informed of where we should go).... Thank God.... sister Kalsom was involved in this program too....!! So, i tailed her right from A4 to the PGMC (the meeting point)

After the registration, i went into the hall....as expected, we were supposed to wear a doggy tag...although i got kumpulan 2 but that wasn't the real placing..... i was later placed in Kumpulan 4....It was supposed to start at 9am... but it started 20 minutes later...

The timbalan director, Dr. Izan gave a short and boring speech....luckily there was a powerpoint presentation during the speech.... otherwise, i would have gone fishing.... judging by the fact that i slept late last night.... haha....ya.. by the way, ming keat went too.... saw him there.

So after the speech, the person in charge, Pn Salmah... divided us into groups.... there were altogether 74 people taking part in this program and we were divided into 7 different groups. So, as mentioned i was in Group 4 and we have 9 people in a group. 3 boys and obviously, 6 girls....haha

Before going for this program, i heard from the previous years participants that they actually visited the mortuary, labour room and so on... unfortunately, our group got all the boring units.... today was the surgical ward, male and female..... tomorrow the opthalmology department and A&E (most interested in).... wednesday, Plastic surgery ward and Wad timur5 kanak-kanak.... thursday, urology and wad pp1 and pp3 and finally friday, A&E again!!! Plus, we will also have to go on-call like real doctors do..... mine's tomorrow at the A&E.... wonder how's it like??? hahhaa luckily there will be 2 visits to the A&E otherwise, the whole programe will be super duper BORING!!!!!

Guess what we'd done today to the extend that i'll have to say that it's boring, lame or anything...

We went to the surgical ward, listen to Sister Enchon's explanation about the various wards in the surgical unit... as far as i can remember, there's the urology, neurology, plastic surgery .... these wards are divided into male and female.... and there's a children ward on the next floor.. Later, we were brought to the palliative care unit, although that's not under our list..... here's where the end stage cancer patients are... so poor thing, i can hear a patient crying out: aiyo aiyo constantly..... pity them....

So, after the brief visitation the 9 of us were divided into groups of 5 and 4.... i'm in the 5 -person group... and we were supposed to go to the male surgical ward.....apalah... so its the 3 boys and 2 of us girls hhahah.... but still, we carried on.... hahaa.... This program was supposed to expose us to the doctor's life in a hospital.... along the way, the sister asked some of the MO and Houseman to give us 'bakal' doctor some advice.... and you know what??? their advice were dicouraging..... like change your choice lah, have to make a lot of sacrifices lah (love life, society, and even family) and they even added that life as a houseman is going to be very terrible... 36 hours non stop of working...... it was also described as a labourer's job but theearnings of a bussinessman and blah blah blah

After that, the sister brought us to see a patient.... he's just had his spleen cut off..... we were told that he went 'rempit'-ing and met an accident.... so.....it's broken limbs plus an injured spleen.... so, they'd to cut off his spleen..... the spleen,produces red blood cells, thus, now he can only depend on his bone marrow lah...that's what the sister told us....and then we were allowed to see the patients' records... there was this 15 years old boy, also met an accident... for the same reason..... we were shocked to see his records.... there were words like alcohol, and smoking!!! at such a young age....+ the rempit thing... wah sei!!!

But, i didn't bother to read all of them..... the words are just tooooo smalll!!! Plus the doctors' handwriting were soooo 'artistic' that i can't decipher what they were writing.... haha hope that i don't become 1 of them....

Finally, after what seems like ages, we went for lunch at the cafeteria....

Guess what happened next..... while i was entering the cafeteria door, i was so deep in thoughts that i didn't realise that the floor wasn't flat..... and so..... i trip..... hhahaha... but lucky that i didn't fall down.... and there were quite a number of people walking in this direction... how embarasing!!!! Luckily i was in time to save myself..... thank God!! Otherwise i would have fall flat on my empty tummy!!!! Haiyo, enough of this part already.....hahaha

Next, went to the basement of Block A to sit while we waited for 2pm..... here's where i used to go when i was small.... remember those times when i come here with mum.... haha long story.....

Went back to where we came from--surgical ward... this time the 5 of us were supposed to go to the female ward but... the sister needs to attend a meeting.... so we again went back to the male ward....as the sister needed to attend a meeting too, she asked us to follow the doctors there and observe them when they are carrying out procedures.... i watched, but we were like 'flower pots' standing in their way, affecting their work.... haiz... i felt bad...mipo

But, still we had no choice but to stay on, otherwise we won't be able to get our scholarships....

Finally, we were allowed to go back home...

Tommorow.... will be a long day..... 8.30am till 10 pm... but again the A&E sounds interesting... that's where i want to be when i become a doctor in future... wonder will i change my mind after tommorow.... maybe, maybe not..... haha

Got to sleep early... today's been a tiring day for me.... stood on my feet most of the time... and now 'they' are starting to complain already.... hahaha

ok.... nitez.....GB

Saturday, March 21, 2009

JPA Scholarship...

Yo!! Its been a while since my last post..... again i am hit by another tornado.... my mind's in a mess..... entangled with those typical ''should i or should i not'' questions....

After receiving my results on the 12th, i'd started applying for scholarships.... actually i only applied for the JPA and Asean scholarship.... and i have no idea why i applied for the latter... for fun perhaps... hahahha

Well, the problem is this.... if i got a JPA scholarship, there's a high possibility that i will be sent abroad to further my studies.... but before that, an A-level course locally.... something like that lah.. i'm not sure also... but still there were some who want me to study form 6..... so, form6. matrics or what??? no idea.. hahha... anyway, i might choose the one which will start latter-- thus extending my holiday... hahhaaha

what's done can't be undone..... i've aplied for the JPA scholarship.... to make matters worse is that i applied for perubatan... which is what i wanted... but...(as what i'd already know) i'll have to attend a 5 day session of Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor at HSA....where my mum works....Practically, i'd been there quite often when i was still a little girl.... hahhaa- sounds irony right... it's not that i don't feel like going.... but thinking that i might be alone..... haiz......

Initially, i was quite excited about this program and hoped that i could go for it.... but what makes me worry now are the trivial things such as where will the participants meet that day.... the hospital is so big and they can't just asked us to enter a door written bilik (whatever it will be)....or taklimat PPKSD.. right?? Can't they just make things clear to us on their letter....thus saving me the trouble to give the person incharge a call on that day... haiz....next... Is this supposed to be a whole day program...? (after reading the blogs of the others who went for this proram the previous years, it seems like a whole day program to me) .... die lah.... I'd promised Kim to go for an outing on Wednesday... how?? Maybe i should check things out on Monday before telling her about it,.... hahhaa....Another thing.... we will be divided into groups... dame desu yo!!! i'm bad in mixing around with unfamiliar people.... die again...(nevermind... it's a hospital i'm going to.... medical assistance is always available there....) hahhha Plus,... i've an upcoming re-take driving test.... this adds to my worries.... it was scheduled to be on the 30th March or 1st April but.. the JPA scholarship interview is also somewhere around that time... how?? Write an e-mail to postpone the interview if the days really clash??? Perhaps....

I don't know why, but since the day i failed my driving test, i had that kind of emptiness/confusion in me.... why?? I kept telling myself that it's alright to fail....but maybe its because that i'm afraid that the re-take driving test will clashed with my interview date.....and i can't possibly have any driving lessons next week.....haiz.....or maybe its my new handphone... i'd lost some of my contacts because i'd forgot to save them on the SIM card... but it'll be a hassle to take it out again and put it back to the old hp just to copy the contacts.... and i'd offended ''granny-yam nee'' yesterday because of this.... hahaha... Luckily i got her number from kim.... hhahaha

empty... blur.... headaches are all i have now...

People, friends and relatives kept asking me what are my plans and where will i be studying... but all that i can say... don't know.... see first hahhha... i'd become used to do my Maria duty after 3 moths of doing so... wash clothes, hang them, fold them, sweep the floor, mopping.....and i sometimes think that.... why not i just stick to these chores hahhahaah

Seriously.. i'm troubled......mipo (long time didn't use already) hahaaaha

Pray that God will help me to solved these problems one by one... step by step.... i'm in a whirlpool now.. don't bother to save me either.... hahaha.... i won't drown.... hahahaa

But i really should go for that PPKSD thing.... its the first step to realising my dream.... i'd heard of whatever it is....like visiting the mortuary and A&E which are the fields i'm interested in.... haha......

there's an education fair today.... and i can't make up my mind whether to go or not?? Guessing that it would make me more confuse.... i decided to forget about it... just stay at home and be prepared for Monday.... i told myself....hahhha

There is no dead end in the path to success.... try your best... presevere.... no matter how hard the journey might be.... don't give up!!! Because without trying it... you won't know that you can do it!!!... that's how i used to encourage myself.....

one more.....haha.....If there are some people who can do it.... why can't i do the same??? hahhaha

Courage is the thing i lack most in my life... i know what to do.. and how things should be done.... it's just that i don't have the courage to put them into action..... why??? is it because i'm scared of failure???? perhaps..... or maybe its the pride i have in me.... self consciousness... can't i just rid them off.... haiz.....

emo..... and that's me!!

have to stop now.... craps are coming out from me... hahha....
GO GO ME!!!!!!!

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Good News and Bad News

I have Good news and bad news, which do you want to know first...?

However, i always like to listen to the bad news first...

The bad news: I failed my driving test.

dame desu yo!! want to know why.... I overtake the next lane when i was about to turn at a junction.. if that bicycle wasn't there, i would have made it... blame myself or the bicycle rider?.... myself.... why? because i didn't slow down that much... so the verdict... i failed the test and have to retake it at the end of this month or early next month.... too bad... anyway, i did quite a lot of mistakes too... though not that serious but i think i would fail too... all the same.....but again, thank God.. for i passed my Bahagian 2- parking etc.... haha.. that was the part i worried most... luckily i don't have to retake that!!!

The Good news: I've a new handphone...Z770i my dream phone-clamshell you see.... hahhaaa

It's not that i wanted so i asked daddy to buy... it's just that my old handphone for almost 4 years gave me a lot of problems recently..... i was typing a message and suddenly, the screen went dark... blank... restart by itself... then searching.... otherwise it would be when i was on the phone talking to mum that day suddenly the line went dead... then i checked... the same thing happened again..... Initially i thought that my hp is going to say bye bye to me already.... not untill today when daddy removed the SIM card from my old hp to put it in the new one that he found that the SIM card looked mouldy.... so, could it be the SIM card's fault or is it true that my old hp is faulty already... but anyway.... the new one has arrived.... there's no turning back.. so, just use it i thought.... but.... i really can't bear to leave my old hp alone... can't i use both???
boo hoo hoo....

So.... the good news and the bad news...

Friday, March 13, 2009

Results!!!

Yesterday was the day i had waited for months.....the announcement of the spm results!!!

I got ready and walked from my house to school... well, i walked..... hhaha....its meant to calm myself down you see.... instead i perspired like i just taken a shower hahha

After such a long wait at the school hall, finally we got our results.... and i got 10 1A and an 2A for Chinese, i'd expected that... haha well, at least i got and A for my chinese.... i was expecting to get a B or a C for that particular subject, because i left so many columns on the answer sheet blank until i had no choice but to fill them up with whatever answers i had at the last minute.....and then there was the essay, i don't even know what i'd wrote.... i was imagining the scene of teachers and students cleaning up the school after a flood.... well, as a matter of fact i'd never encounter that kind of scenario before, but i tried to imagine..... and as i make up images in my mind, i wrote that essay... it was by God's grace that i managed to get an A for BC.... really....

And then.... the GCE-O for English... as a matter of fact i tried something that i had never dared to do before.... i made an attempt to write a story out of the topic '' Stars ''.... at the beginning i was writing relaxingly and then... as time goes by... i found that i had run out of time... so i had to end the essay abruptly..... but i tried to make it as artistic as i can hahahaha....

again, the BM essay... i attempted a different way of writng essay, which i'd never tried before... That was a very risky thing.... Luckily, i got A for that subject, otherwise i might just.....

hhaha... Anyway, this marks an end to the 3 months of anxious wait.... Finally i can make a decision on the path i should take... imagine, i'm now standing at a cross road......and after that embarking on a journey which i don't know where it will lead me to....one road leads to another, there's no turning back... hhaha

The trick is to apply for anything or scholarship available.... nothing to lose anyway.... hahha that's what i thought... but again, i clearly know that i will be stuck at form 6 for another 2 more years.....so, why waste my time and energy on applying hahaha

Whatever it is, i still have my driving test next Monday.... my worst fears....... pray that i won't be nervous and hopefully the sun shines brightly that day.... haahaha

SMKST Makan Malam Amal....

some of you might be aware that our school held a special 25th anniversary dinner last sunday at the Grand Straits Garden Restaurant, some where near Danga Bay....

On the eve of this function, i'd been there together with my aunt, sister and... Pn Wendy... for the reharseals.... Guess what i was supposed to do.... Test the amplifier used for the line dance before the event.. and there's a high possibility that we won't even need it... But for us '' kia su'' people, its always better safe than sorry..... hahhaa... So, i looked like a weirdo, carrying that super huge box walking into the hall..... try imagining it.... funny right?? hhaaha

But my efforts wasn't wasted, after the rehearsals ended, 1st aunt suggested to Pn Wendy that we go for tauhu bakar and chendol and ice kacang.... hhahaa.. Unfortunately, that particular stall at Tepian Tebrau wasn't open yet.... too bad.... so, we had to settle for Rojak Petis, Mee Bandung and Mee Rebus at another stall at the same place.... haha....Pn Wendy foot the bills hhahaha.... and i ate my fill hahhha

The next day... again i carried that super huge box and 'walked' into the hall... like a weirdo.... but what to do?? hhaaha The band was practicing on the stage.... Well, they improve quite a bit compared to yesterday's performance.... hahhaha

Well, as we were enjoying the food served, the teachers had their performances. But before that, i must say that the powerpoint presentation was interesting....!!! hahah and after that performances..... 6th aunty uploaded the videos i took that day at youtube... but i wasn't very good because my hand kept shaking.... so you can expect to see an earthquake in those videos i took... hahaha....

This is the link to Mr. Bobby and Pn. Sharon duet.:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Wt8iM5Qmjw.... hahha

This is another link to the Chinese fan dance performed by some of our chinese teachers: Pn. Tiang, Pn. Lim, Pn. Heah, Pn. Fam, Cik Jessica and another teacher which i do't know her name... haha:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l8dyxnrWDgQ

Only these 2 videos were uploaded for the time being. hahah....the rest were my aunts and the rest of them dancing line dance before the event started.... haha....

Plus, we were so lucky this time to win a lucky draw... 1st aunt bought 2 tables.... we took one table and the others were sold to the other line dancers. and both tables won a prize each for 2 different draws.... Ours was a hamper and we sent my sis, who wore the best dress up to collect the hamper.... hahah.... guess who was the next one to go on stage after her..... secret..... hahahhaa wahsei! I nearly jumped out of my seat laughing man... luckily daddy pulled me down in time... hahaha (never mind if you don't undersyand what i'm typing) hahaahha

The last draw was a voucher to Genting First World Hotel, 3D2N...... and it was won by one of the line dancers... hooray.....at least both tables won something... this might be our first time winning a lucky draw.... hahha

Finally, the event ended with the band performance.... Not Bad!!! Compared to yesterday hahahhha at least they looked more confident and there is no ''unexpected special effects''.... hahha

In a nutshell, this event was considered quite successful, the teachers were all very supportive...that's what my aunts and dad say.... hahah...

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Caring for Pets

Lately, my 1st aunty was frequently not at home... so, i being the most idle one at home had to take over her duties of taking care of the dogs in her Tebrau house, namely Toto, Putih and Jaya.

At first i thought that those were just easy tasks that i could handle with the tips of my fingers. But i was proven wrong.

24th febuary, 1 aunty departed for Australia to attend cousin Stephen's wedding. The first task assigned to me before she left was feeding the dogs. Took out their respective bowls and scoop the rice into them. Next, distributed their bowls. As this was my first time feeding the dogs after so many years, i had long forgotten which bowl belonged to which dog. I gave Putih Jaya's bowl and she gave a 'one of her kind' look.... hahhaha And i immediately got her message.... swopped their bowls.... hahhahha

That task was easy. The though one-- the disposal of dog shit!! OMG... i won't described it much here.... But i managed to do it well haha.. I won't elaborate...hahha

Many pet owners kept pets just for the reasons because pets like dogs or cats are cute or as a companion. Some of them even went to the extend to spend a few thousand dollars just to get a Beagle, Chi hua hua etc, excluding the expenses on their pet food... They are willing to spend their time playing with them, caressing their fur, and talking to them as well, but when it comes to cleaning up their pets' droppings.... or so called faeces, most of them shun away and hoping hard that someone will come and clear them away.... hahhaa That' s what happened here. I used to be one of them, but now, i'd changed... hahaaa

Last time, i always wanted to keep a dog in our house in Pelangi, but mum refused to let me do so. The reason: who is going to clean the dog's faeces? I naively replied that i will be responsible. But mum seemed to understand this daughter quite well...and till now we havn't kept any pets in our house ever since our Boh Hiap passed away when i was still small...You see?

Well, updates...

The new furnitures came in today....a sofa, a tv console and a coffee table plus an lcd tv. After 20 odd years, this is the first time dad and mum get something new into our house.. hahahaa....It's great to have new things in the house, but i was just so worried that they might throw away the old one....mipo.... i don't want that to happen mipo.... after all this 18 years i had been living together with them..... hahaha

oklah, that's it for now... The only person chatting with me on msn is going to sign out already..... (she said so, but i don't think so).... hahaa... The orange light is still flashing at the bottom of the screen....again and again hahahha

Nite....God bless