I knew about my chinese subject result today. I got 64 marks. Despite this very B among my other results, i got first in class.... haha:) Thank God..
Albeit i don't have to take chinese for my spm, but i chose to take it, for reasons unknown. When i am in form 4 and Pn Tee was our chinese teacher, i thought that my chinese will just go 'kong' and that i will fail my chinese. To tell the truth, i wasn't good in my chinese since i was young as i came from an english educated family.
I did not know how i came to know this language. I remembered when i was small, my mum likes to make fun of me by talking to me in mandarin. I don't even a single word that comes out from my mums mouth. So, desperate, i would say:" Mummy, don't talk to me like this leh.." I talk to my dad, mum and aunts in english and to my grandma, i speak to her in hainanese.
When i entered kindergarten, i think, that was when i got to learn how to speak in mandarin. That's because my friends were all mandarin speaking. I had no choice. That's when i asked my grandma a question. Does she know how to speak in mandarin? Surprisingly, my grandma knows. Since then, i started speaking mandarin.
I did not know how i pulled through my primary school years. I only know some chinese word apart from my chinese name. For 6 years i studied in a chinese environment. I remembered, there were times that i did not understand what the teacher is talking and make a joke out of myself. haha Maybe that was why i am so quiet.
When i was in primary 6, when i was sitting for my UPSR, my chinese result was the worst in class. The teacher was so worried about me. At that time, i also wasn't good in my maths too. Through many cannings and punishments, i eventually got an A for both subjects.. In a way, i am very thankful to my primary school teachers for making me to be what i am today.
Untill secondary school, i continued studying chinese because it was compulsary for all chinese school leavers to take the chinese subject in PMR. Despite my always 79, 78 results, i got an A for my chinese. It was all God's grace, i would say.
Today, i chose to take the chinese subject as one of my SPM subject. But i don't regret making this decision, even though i did not do well in this exam. Some people did not take chinese just to get a straight 1A in the SPM. But i would not mind taking this risk, as i know that God will help me to pull through the challenges ahead...
加油！！！
