no time to lose...

i'm going to make this post as short as possible. after this, i'm going to shut down my laptop and start STUDYING!!!

there's so much to study!!! piles of lecture notes, since last last week.. i haven't even begin glancing through those, i got some more today. seems like i have to speed up--from 1st gear to 5th gear now.. another few more weeks to my Selanjar1, but that's after the raya break; something to rejoice, but at the same time, not a good idea, because that means that i can't even relax when i'm at home!!! no outings!! no gossiping!!! no shoppings!!! argh!!!!

however, as life gets busier, the days in USMKK seems to passby faster... i think i'm starting to get used to this place.. but i'm still frequently complaining about the hostel, ecspecially when it's hot, no water... and black outs!!!! haiz... i even thought of 'migrating' to the other hostel which is quite far away from the faculty. but seriously, i don't mind walking the distance for a better environment. The only thing that is stopping me now is i'm worried about my chances of getting a room next year, because nurani is infamous for 'kicking' people out; on the other hand, my murni seems safer :) and also, if i were to change room, i will have new roommates to get used to.. and to adapt to their living styles..... haiz... ''if changing rooms is going to be easier.... haiz...''

study, study, study... that's what we all do nowadays.. luckily i've settled the WUS project--sales. never did i imagined that our group would get profit from selling the things we did-- second hand magazines, books, comics, colouring pencil and books , necklace and bracelets.. YAY!!! Thank God!! we got profit... at first, i just prayed that we wouldn't lose money, just hope that we could earn enough money to cover the cost.... but miracolously, we managed to earn RM44.50. even though it's just a small amount, but we were contented :)

now, we have community service pula!! it's time to prove our reply during the interview.
interviewer: why do think you want to be a doctor?
interviewee: because i like to help people ma.....
now, prove it!!!!

but that's after selanjar... put that one on hold first...

tommorow, there'll be a gathering with the Johor seniors.. haiz i didn't prepare any presentations to present leh... sure they will try to ask us to do something to humour them >< i die liao la!!!!! maybe i'll have stomachache or anything tommorow.... i don't feel like going!!! i'm not the only one, all the first years didn't want to go also.. hahhaha.... reason: we want to STudy!!!! and knowing what we would think, the seniors had warn us against bringing any notes to the gathering... haha smart!!

tommorow's friday again.. going to church!!! heehee :) i felt excited going to church and cf... i don't know why... maybe it's that sense of belonging... going for cell group dinner isn't that stressful as going to a johor gathering.. haiz ==''

ok.. i guess that's all for now... 2 more weeks, and i can go home for RAYA!!!! haha

sigh...

things didn't turn out to be as bad as i imagined... it turned out that my WUS group members were so helpful :) i didn't realised it earlier...

now i'm not so pessimistic about that project anymore. the fact about we can't change what is boud to happen, but we can always change the way we think about things.. is quite true after all :D it is the mind that's controlling what we are... it is the mind that tells us whether we can or cannot do it... i have experienced all of these before... ecspecially the part about doing something that i thought that i coudn't do..but when i changed my mind all the impossibles became possible... ^^ but when i don't feel like doing anything, and just shut my eyes and mind and go to sleep.. and nothing will be accomplished.. heehee.. (by sleeping, it's my only way of getting away from all the problems that i'm reluctant to solve)

it's not so bad afterall!! once we got the stuffs, we can now sell!! haha.. but that's the biggest headache, but nevermind, i know the whole gang of 6 people, we, will be able to get this solved together :) gambateh!!! it's team spirit we need ^^

i also have my jiejie in the same group as me.. heehee

as you all know i don't have any elder sister.. but we're sort of related... since she's older than me by 1 year, so she's jiejie.. haha it's good to have her around...at least someone close that can rely on ><

haiz... another 1 more day at jb... will be leaving jb on saturday afternoon.. to be honest, i don't really feel like going back.. why?? i don't know.. what scares me the most there??

we have..

-de CHARLIE to thank for!!! i thought i had escaped the clutches of the vengeful Charlies in kmpp..

- the toilet!!! water small.. bathe halfway no water...

-and other reasons i also don't know.... it's a kind of fear, but i don't know what is it... who cares?? haha

anyway, it's what i had always wanted-- study medicine in USM ( i always thought that it's in Penang) haiz... so, like i said just now, just change my perception on studying in kelantan

Kelantan is nice.... kelantan is the best!!!!
Kelantan is SERIOUSLY nice!!!!
USMKK is a nice place..!!! nice scenery!!!!...
NO POLUtION= LiVES lonGer!!

to talk is always easier than to be done.. maybe in this case, more time is needed.. phew==''

vexed..==''

why?? WHY??? WHYYYYYY???!!!!

why do we have to do that project??
why must we need to pass that subject in order to graduate??
why is that subjected integrated into our syllabus??
why is it compulsary for us to take that subject???
why would i need it when i don't even plan to do any bussiness later, not even setting up a clinic????

I don't want!!! don't want!!! don't want!!!

to make it clear, the subject i'm talking about is Entrepreneurship...

i'm so stressed out about this thing, the project we were supposed to do under this subject--do bussiness!!!! we were supposed to set up our own stalls on a given day, and then sell our own stuffs.... before that we were divided into groups of 6 to 7 people. and to be lucky enough, i was chosen to be the group leader. and you know what the group leader has to do?? --anything your group members don't do, you have to do it!!!! that's why i don't like being the leader!!! and now, i have no choice!!!! i don't really know whether they were being kind to me, or were they just pushing that extra tediuos job to me :(

i can't explain this worry feeling inside me..

what if..
what if... people don't buy the things we sell
what if... people were not interested in what we are selling
what if... we don't make any profit
what if... we fail, and have to retake
what if... they blame me for that ???????

it was all my idea to sell those things...
to sell second hand comics/ storybooks/ novels; to sell colouring books; to sell colour pencils; keychains and stuffs...

it was only when i came back that i found that selling second hand comics would be a problem... because i only have 5... (i don't remember where the rest were, but i might be able to cover it up with novels and storybooks)... what about colouring books and colouring pencils?? we have to buy them first, and then sell them... but where to get it cheap??? and keychains... how am i going to find a wholesaler????

HOW???!!!!

haiz...
God.. please help me!!!! guide me through this project..

may people buy our products
may we earn some profit, not for us to spend, but just to pass this quest...
may we pass this test...

this is just part of the subject...

next, we have to interview an entrepreneur-- luckily i got my aunt!! :) but that's only 10% of RP(rancangan perniagaan, they call it) later we have to come out with some rancangan based on the info we got from the interviewee... i also don't really understand... let me get some info first, then later i can straight away carry on with the report.

and... despite all these stressful assignments, we still have ujian and quiz!!!

haiz... i really don't like this... but what to do??

life must go on... after the storm, comes the sun... after the sufferings, comes the joy.. and most importantly --some rest!!! haha

but that's after 1 year.... luckily we don't have this subject anymore next year... phew==!

i'm survivng!!!

hey there :)

i've already spent 2 weeks here in USM kubang kerian.. i'm quite lucky today, as i can access wifi from my room.. normally there wouldn't be any connections, maybe there aren't many people online yet...so, i thought i'd update my blog when i have a chance to do so...

i was quite dissapointed at the sight of my room at first, when i saw that it was so smaller, 3 to 4 times smaller than my roon in kmpp... and then the toilet is soooo... haiz.. undescribable.. i thought that i would not bathe in that toilet at first.. but, still i have to bathe what.. and the place to wash clothes... tsk tsk tsk... many of the girls would rather use the washing machine than to wash their clothes there-- not me of course..

but all of these mindsets and perception changed right after i set foot in the kem Lata Belatan in Terengganu. first, we need to build our tents, though the 6 of us, all girls were like the fastest to finish setting up our tent, but, actually it doesn't look stable..haha.. however, it managed to hold on for 2 nights... and then the toilet problem again... there's a big pool of water in the toilet, and ya, we were supposed to mandi beramai-ramai!!! it's so awkward, even though i brought my sarung... so, i skipped. i didn't bathe for 1 day!! yay!! broke my record... many people didnt bathe too... so the whole tent of us stink throughout the night.. haha

we had many activities during that camp.. mainly ice-breaking activities. but the most exciting one was jungle trekking. we did that twice... one early early in the morning--2 to 3 am and one in the evening. the one in the morning was more of a walk in the jungle... but the evening one was very challenging. that's when i fell and got stuck in the mud and became very dirty...

maybe it was my shoes or maybe it was due to my clumsyness... while walking or climbing up a tree bark i slipped-- forgot to add that it rained earlier on... so that thing, and many of the areas in the jungle were quite damp and slippery... out of desperation, i tried to hold on to the tree bark, but maybe i was just too desperate, i think i grabbed it too hard... i was scared to imagine what would happen if i fell straight down... it's going to be so embarassing... and the result, i scratched my fingers... and elbow... and they bleed... when my friend exclaimed that i was bleeding, i tried to ignore it.... at least let me finish this first... and i slipped another time while i was getting on another tree bark... twice at the same place... ish... the 2 fascilitators the could not help but laugh... '' haiyo.. kali kedua ni!!'' aduh...i don't know where to put my face lor..

after that was the mud... i got into another embarassing moment there... we were walking in the mud when the person behind me touch or pushed me slightly... and i instantly lose my balance and..... wooo... ahhh.... eeeeee... i nearly fell down ...i struggled to get myself up... ut the mud was pullling me down... i took another few steps foward... and i get into a really muddy zone... i felt myself sinking.... the more i tried to get up, the deeper i went down... i finally figured out the logic-- don't move... but then... as i get deeper in, i was worried about that bendera in my pocket. it was an amanah given to each one of us during the start of the camp, and we were supposed to keep it and bring it out for any activity.,.. chor teng..i can hardly save myself, now i have to jaga that bendera pulak... too bad, it has to become dirty :p

then after that we have to climb a steep hill up to the top... there's a rope to guide us... one hand injured, one hand with bendera... how to climb??? i had no choice but to put the bendera in my mouth... hahaha... it's better no one saw the state i was in that day... and i was glad that i could made it out... thank God!! but i have to admit that it was the best experience i ever had... jungle trekking

we also had survival cooking.... each platun was given a live chicken and we were supposed to cook that for lunch. for each platun a muslim boy will slaughter the chicken while a non-muslim girl has to catch the chicken... unfortunately i was the one... i threatened them that i would let the chicken go if i was the one who catch it, but it was no use-- nobody dares to do it, while boys were not allowed. no choice, i went... i missed the first one... but managed to get the second one... it didn't struggle while i carried it... maybe it feels safe in my hands.. llallala.. i see other people struggling to manage their chickens... i can feel it's heartbeat.. thump thump... maybe it feels safe with me or it thought that i would let it go... so poor thing i thought of doing so, but in situations like this... haiz.. there's no way :( sadly i handed the chicken over to ikhwan who was supposed to slaughter it.. (luckily, we don't have to do that part... otherwise it woultn't be halal)


after orientation, we started our lessons... first week, what we thought was going to be easy.. bioethics and social health... but then, the lectures were not easy to understand... especially the notes... seniors say we don't have to memorise too much for this block, but i'm just worried about the end of block assessment and selanjar 1... and phase 1 exam will have some of these questions too... in the most popular format-- essay!!! haiz


we got our set of plastic bones already and microscope... it's free but we have to share among 2 people..haha.. my partner was smart enough to ask me to carry the bones.. it's soooo heavy man!! and i just had an ATT injection that day.... again, thank god.. i made it safely to my room haha

there's a lot of tales to tell, but i don't have mush time... need to start studying...

Gambateh!!!!

end of holidays...

USM medicine.. here i come :) bye, holidays...><

tommorow, i'll be flying to kota baru for the second time this year... i'm not going for a short trip this time.. i'll be staying there for a minimum of 4 weeks, and i'm coming back again!! well, that's the only thing i'm looking forward to, at least, for now...

kelantan is too far away, and the flight ticket isn't cheap, and i'll spent almost 1 day to come back home.. ( have to transit at kl) that's why i can only come back during holidays... and the one great advantage usm has, is the convocation break 4 weeks after the start of the year!!! yay!!

orientation will start as soon as we enroll into uni.. i am relieve that raging is strictly prohibited in usm during orientation week, but i expect the seniors won't be too easy on us either :(

i really enjoyed myself during this short holiday... watch several tv dramas in one day, high speed internet, and watching Winx club season 4 on youtube, until episode 24 though, the rest aren't uploaded yet...

finally, i finished packing today... just need to go through the things again tonight. will be flying off early morning tommorow... bye :) will miss everything in JB from my family to my home, to the dogs, to the air, and most importantly.... the RAIN!!!!! there was quite a heavy rain this afternoon... haiz hope that there will be rain in kelantan... ( i've decided not to send you some rain clouds to UM, Pauline!!! you'd made me really mad at you!!! and you know why!!)

so long... till we meet again 4 weeks later..

will try to update about lifein USMKK... but that is, if they do not block blogger...haha