Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Putting up a strong front

well, it's hard for me to say it out loud this time, but it is a fact....I failed my driving test again mipo....so how? retake again lah....that seems to be the only way out. I felt really embarassed.. among my friends i'm the only lucky one to have the chance to retake my deiving test...up till now, everyone passed their tests one time round...phew...and me?? going around and gladly tell everyone i failed....wahaha...

I seldom do so badly in all the tests i took..except that i had failed my BM during primary 5.But this one was....terrible!! How i wished that i'd passed the first time, though it was just a small mistake that caused me to fail. This time was worse...after two weeks of not driving, i guessed i'd lost touch with my skills....the car didn't seem to move although i stepped on the accelerator and released the clutch...so what did i do? Step harder on the accelerator!!! wahaha.. what a joke....coming to think of it...i guess i should release more clutch right?? i'm not sure...so, everytime i stopped, i was struck by this dilemna....the car won't move, and when it does, it went vroom...speeding forwards...it wasn't like this before....and i don't know why...the d-moment came when i reached a junction and was supposed to stop. When i was ready to go, released the clutch and step on the accelerator...still the car won't move...this time, the engine died on me.... the examiner was getting impatient... i know...since the car move forward a little bit, over the spot where we were supposed to stop, the verdct: i failed....wahaha...

we swapped seats and he drove me back to Berjaya....at that time, i felt: what a disgrace!!! but i know that i can't just give up...!! i don't feel like telling anyone about this... the last time i went around telling everybody, but this time, i just felt...sad, dismay....despair....haiz...

That's the sad part of my story...i shan't elaborate on it....afraid that it might draw tears in my eyes... they are swollen enough already....due to days of insufficient sleep

Ok....today, i went for the JPA scholarship interview...

2nd aunty drove me there. Together we went with mumy and aunty Mary. When we reached Kluang, we stopped by aunty Moi Chai's house. Then together, the 4 of us went for lunch at Prime City hotel...wow!! the lunch was fantastic!! Mine was chicken chop with rice + a glass of orange juice, and guess what, it only costs RM7.90!! hahha...Thank You aunty Moi Chai for the lunch!!!!

Next, we headed for INTAN, where the interview was held. Registered and submitted the photocopied documents. i was placed at Panel 3, guess what?? i was the first on the 2pm list of Panel3 wahahah...mambo number 1!! We went into the interview room in groups of 5. My group consists of 4 chinese and 1 indian. So, we were greeted by 3 interviewers. We sat according to our numbers but only after we were asked to sit lah, i don't want to be rude. haha..

First, we were asked to introduce ourselves....of course, me was the first to start...so, i started off with my name, from JB, came from SMKST, my family members and my hobby....nervous??maybe not!! wahahha...

After the brief self introduction in Malay, we were asked to discuss a given topic in English. The topisc given was How to reduce dengue cases? so, the 5 of us gathered around and had a 2 minutes discussion. After that we were asked one by one to present our idea. .... blah blah blah.. Next, we were given another topic, but this time we need to present it in Malay....The topic was How to overcome the shortage of Specialis Doctors in our country?? in Malay lah of course.... but i just translate it. So, again we were given 2 minutes to discuss. After that, present. I did not take note how long did the interview last...after saying thank you and leaving our signatures, we went back to the waiting hall to get back our files.

Next, went back home...it's a long journey..plus the wheather was so hot too!!....hahaha but i'm quite satisfied with my performance today....haha..at least much much better than what happened yesterday....i feel much better now....

Whether i get this scholarship or not does not matter much to me, i'd known in the first place that it's quite hard to get this scholarship as the places available are limited especially courses like medicine...but it's the experience that i valued the most...at least, this time i wasn't as nervous as the time i went for the Taylor's Principle Awards interview.

ok, that's it for now....tommorrow's April fool!!...

Nitez n god bless

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Hari kecemerlangan

Went to school at 9am today for hari kecemerlangan....Had a chance to catch up with my friends...glad to know that they all had already made plans for their future, at least this is better than those...''i don't know'', ''see first'' answers.... hahha.. well, but there are still some who are still unsure of what they should do... haiz..

I forgot to take note of the time the event started.... but it started with speeches from the pengetua, Micheal Tay and YB Mok...to tell the truth, i wasn't paying attention to their speeches... because the echoes were just too loud... plus, they were really long and boring..... hahhahaha...

Finally, it's prize giving time!!! Got RM30.00 and a certificate.....quite satisfied though....hahhaha...Anyway, i didn't study hard just to get this money... hahhaha..

After receiving our prizes, we left for City Square..... KC drove us girls there...

Had lunch at Wong Kok...ordered a plate of mee and a glass of milk tea.... The food was nice, but i don't know why, i just felt nauseous....these few days i'm starting to have these feelings again.... stomachache...nauseous...and giddiness....i'm just worried that i'm again suffering from gastroentiritis, the so called stomach flu.....i'd just recovered from that last month....and it's terrible!!!!

After that, me, Kim and Yam Nee went to the washroom... and then we headed for popular because i need to help my sis to get a testpad.... Went to the testpad section, and chose one....the cheapest one of course.... haha... on my way to the counter, i caught sight of a few boxes of jigsaw puzzle a few centimeters away from the stacks of testpads......haha... went to take a look at them of course.... hahaa....ended up buying one for myself... because the price was reasonable, plus there was a 20% discount... and it has the picture of doggies.... wheee!!! hahaha

Went to meet the rest of them at the cinema.... but i don't intend to watch a movie...it will just be a waste if i bought a movie ticket..i might be sleeping throughout the whole movie for all you know...hahha..i'm so tired....my eyelids were closed to shutting....i can't even feel that i'm walking...floating perhaps,..... hahahha

Accompanied Yam Nee to buy her hairband...she couldn't find a bag she likes....failed to find a dress for herself too....

After spending for almost 2 hours at city square, me and yam nee went back home....by taxi of course...hahha..and you know what... we were cheated by the taxi driver... he actually charged us RM10, from CS to yam nee's house in Tebrau Jaya.....we looked at each other....puzzled...it used to be RM5 to RM7.....according to YN.....but we didn't say anything, just paid the taxi fare....

Mum fetched me from YN's house.....

Back home, felt sick....diarhoea again since yesterday...felt like vomitting....urgh.....maybe it's stress or something...just hope that it wouldn't be anything serious...i still had many things to do these few days....again reminding myself, i'm having my driving test this Monday,1pm and getting the pengetua's signature for the borang pengesahan pendapatan keluarga...JPA interview this Tuesday,2pm....haiz.... Hope that all things will go well...i don't want to repeat it again....

Anyway, today's Earth Hour...and we were supposed to turned off all non-essential lights from 8.30pm till 9.30pm....haha...i'd long waited for this day, but Daddy came back late, so, i had to leave some of the lights on....haiz... i thought of turning them off...but i couldn't lah...so, i just turned off those lights that we could do without them....

Ok, that's it for now....

Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor...5th Day

Finally, after 4 days... today's the last day of this program. Woke up at the same time and went downstairs for breakfast. I got a shocked when i noticed that my sister hasn't gone to school yet... You know why, mummy's car tyre deflated....unfortunately....

So, after breakfast and getting ready, daddy drove me there. As usual, met the other group members at the entrance of the main building and then proceeded to today's program--to the A&E department. The time we went in, the A&E was so cold and quiet because other than the doctors, nurses and one or two patients, it's just the 11 of us.... haha....After walking one round around the whole place, we headed straight to the bilik seminar...sat there and started gossiping...

3 cases came in after that. First, it was a baby. then there was a guy, i don't know what was the reason... and then a child.... Unfortunately, the doctors failed to save this child's life....standing behind the blinds, we could see that the doctors were performing cpr to this patient, each doctors had their chance of doing so....but sadly, after a few minutes her heart still couldn't beat on its own, the doctors also gave up.....and so....the monitors were turned off and all tubes were pulled out....Later, i saw the child's kins coming in...an MA lead them to where the child was lying, he seemed like he was explaining something to them....just so you know.

Whenever there was a case admitted into the resuscitation room, all of us will barge into the room also. I can feel that it is over crowded... but haiz...i can't be the odd one out.. so, i went in too... You know what, we were like a bunch of curious people, hanging around the curtains and tipping our toes just to see the doctors carrying out their procedures....

But coming to think of it, if i were the doctor, i wouldn't want so many people to see me working...haha...i can't help feeling like that, so i just stand at a distance, it doesn't matter if i can't see anything... haha... i just don't want to disturb the doctors.. or standing in their way... and i'm not surprised that they find us a hindrance and irritating.... hhhahaha...Again, the patients might not like it also, ecspecially those who are in pain or had difficulty in breathing.......imagining a bunch of people seeing you or rather staring at you while you had to put up a struggle to save your life.... i wouldn't like it.....the patients, normally those suffering from injuries.... they kept yelling at the doctors: sakit sakit... this brought my memory back to 11 years ago, when i had a few stitches on my right eyebrow after knocking right into a pillar... haha..i wasn't even crying when i entered the bilik rawatan... calm...as if i wasn't aware of what was going to happen.... then the doctor came, turned on the lamp...asked me to close my eyes... and then dabbed some ''don't know what is that'' liquid on my right eye.... after that, i felt something poking through my eyelid.. a few minutes later, the lamp was turned off and the room's fluorescent light was turned on.....i wasn't even screaming or anything....though it was quite painful....haha..here comes the funny part... haha... A maly doctor came in....he told me something like ''ant's bite....tak sakit punye''... how on earth am i supposed to know what's going on... so i just noded my head... then i saw that he was holding a syringe with a needle attached....aiming for my left arm...that time.. i still didn't know what he was up to....suddenly,, OUCH!! I felt something pierced into my left arm... and i went '' BOO HOO HOO'' hhhahaha.. i cried my lungs out hahahaha... and he was like :''haha.. nangis pulak tu, tadi kan cakap, ant's bite je..'' hahhahah... mom got a shocked too, she didn't expect me to cry so loudly, padan muka.... hahahah

After lunch, went to PGMC for the end of program taklimat. DR. Izzam gave a powerpoint presentation...group leaders gave their report....some students gave their testimonials...and then after getting back our borang kehadiran, we were allowed to go back....But before that we took a group photo....hhaha...

All in all, this program in a way, it's good... but again, it's boring sometimes, ecspecially those times when we were invisible to the staffs there.. but, we should understand that the doctors and nurses are also busy.... they can't just sit down and talked to us.... right?? but, i'd also gained some experience through this exposure program....at least i know the hospital quite well by now...i practically walked around the whole hospital already....hahahaha...

ooh, almost forgot, next monday's my driving test....hahaha.. not again!! hahha i haven't been driving since the last time i failed the test....haha wonder if i could make it or not this time.... pray that i would...hahha.. wish me luck!! This is followed by Tuesday's interview.... haiz...so, it's either going to the interview smiling, or looking miserable.... haha...it all depends on Monday!! hahahaha

oklah, that's it for today....i'm so tired....(yawn)

Nitez and god bless.....:)

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor.....4th Day

Today's the second last day of this program..... yay...in the sense that i don't have to wake up early after this wahahha..... but boo...because i'd just started to get myself used to this new environment... Anyway, the interview's next Tuesday.... am i doing any preparations??? Apparently, no... haha... i intended to blahhh my way through this.... perhaps....:)

So, as usual, went to the hospital before 8.30am....meet up with the rest of the group members before setting off for the urology clinic. So, we went to the Poliklinik first, but we have no idea where the urology clinic was. Luckily there was a sign board there and we found out that the clinic was at the third floor. so, we took a lift up there as no one wants to climb the stairs....reached the third floor, but then again, there were more clinics there.... the psychiatric clinic, skin clinic, dentist... and etc... as a result, we mistakenly went to the psychiatric clinic, and we saw a patient coming out of the doctor's room...he looked at us, confused, and then smiled and say good morning... we got a shocked, because at that time we weren't aware that we were at the wrong place... so, we also greeted him....good morning....hahaa

After that, we managed to find the place....sat on the chairs...and waited....A doctor there briefed us about his life being a doctor.. He told us that he had his medical studies in India... and also....the standard thing....'being doctor is not easy''....kind of thing...but he urged us to come back to serve in this country even though if we were sent overseas for medicine.... because our country is currently short of doctors or rather doctors working in government hospitals..haha...most of them either continue their stay overseas or opted to go to a private hospital...gaji lumayan, they said....haha....but to me, the money is not a problem....it's the passion that matters....haha

After staying there for more or less than 1 hour, we left the clinic and went to the children's ward... where we went yesterday..... Saw the boy we saw that day at the A&E, the one who had a broken leg after falling into the drain....we learnt more about the accident from his parents today...it was a hit and run case, involving a taxi... and the police are still investigating to find the culprit.... kelly was still sleeping at the time we entered the ward...but she woke up before we left, so we spent some time talking to her....she's better today, maybe because her mother and little brother was there....haha....

Next, we went to the cafeteria for lunch...an early one indeed....haha...half an hour earlier. On the way to the cafeteria, we saw a middle age lady....she stopped us and said she wanted to share with us something... so, she started talking. She had a leg injury, and had a swollen angkle or something, i wasn't paying attention because she was surrounded by the rest and i was squeezed right at he back..... after that i found a better spot and continued listening..... she actually went to a private hospital or a clinic before coming here to take an x-ray and for futher investigations... before i go on, her son-in law's a doctor also...so she told us that she went to see a doctor here and without looking at her injury nor taking an x-ray, the doctor just prescribed her some medicine....she was very unhappy about this. She doesn't intend to take the medicine prescribed for her and added that she wants to show her son-in-law.... haha... and we just listen, nod our heads... what she's trying to tell us is that, when we become doctors, we should not treat our patients like that, at least, we must examined the patients injury first before prescribing medicine, or letting them go out from the clinic without making a thorough checkup...and guess what, she called us young doctors.... (so, we looked like one ya??) hahhaha

Today's lunch break was long...because we came down earlier than anyone else. After that, we went to the PP1 ward, women's medical ward. Walk 1 round, blocked some people's way, messed around with the files before we came out...we make sure we did that in every ward we go... hahahahahaa...After that, we proceeded to Block D, men's wards. We did the same thing there also... and created more congestion in the already over-crowded wards..hahhaa

Finally we were allowed to go back....again, we were early by 20 minutes..haha

Tomorrow's the last day of this program... According to the schedule, tommorrow we are suppose to go to the A&E....I'm not sure if there will be any ammendments or not....but i hope not..haha

ok, that's it for today....

nitez and god bless

program Pendedahan Kerjaya Seorang Doktor...3rd Day

Woke up at 6.50 am.... wah.. my bed was so comfortable, so reluctant to get up... plus, i slept late last night.....yawn...

After breakfast, washed up and got ready to go to the hospital again... haha. Daddy drove me there.. According to the schedule, we were supposed to go to the plastic surgery clinic and the Timur 5 children's surgical ward today....

We gathered at the main entrance... 8.30am, we headed for the poliklinik. Today, we were more independant.. or maybe the group leader was. He brought us to the plastic surgery clinic and told the MA there that we were here for the exposure program....Well just beside us was the O&G clinic.. so there were many pregnant mothers walking past us.. and looking at us a weird kind of expression.... maybe they are thinking.. what on earth are these youngsters doing here?? hahaa

However, it was fun being at the clinic.... the medical officer (i forgot his name) brief us about the plastic surgery clinic, though he was supposed to be on leave today.... then introduced us to the surgeon, the MA and the other MOs in the clinic... Not forgetting the part that almost every doctor told us, being a doctor is not easy... especially during housemanship....blah blah blah...

We were allowed to observe the doctors doing their procedures in the clinic today.... there was one lady, she got operated on her face to removed a suspected tumour. The operation was performed a few days ago. I'm not quite sure of what they did in the begining, because i went in towards the end of the procedure.... when the doctor made a few stitches and then,....done!!

The next case, a Vietnamnese lady who got her finger injured during work. The skin on her second finger joint was tear of.... or something like that.. They used the skin on her abdomen to replace the skin on the wounded area. To do this, her injured finger was stitched on her abdomen to allow the skin to grow over the wounded area... and their task today was to separate the injured finger from her abdomen.....and so on....

Ahha, here's the most exciting part of the story..... Guess who i saw when i got out from the clinic?? hahaha..... Singapore Mediacorp actor, Zzen Chong... just in case you don't know who he is.... he played the charater, Robert Zhang in the Little Nyonya show. haha.... when i saw him for the first time, i didn't really realise that it was him, i just thought this guy was really familiar... and i know i saw him somewhere.... then, i turned again, stared longer.... this time he looked in my direction.... and i was like wah!! really it's him lah....he smiled... and probably thinking why is this silly girl keep looking at me?.....and there was these two girls who went and took a photograph with him.... hahhaa.... Well, its really unexpected that he'd come here....you know... but it turned out that he was just accompanying someone here..... i guess it's another malaysian actor.. looks like one though... hahaa.. but i only saw his backview.... hahha

Somewhere around this time, received a call from Pn Patricia, informing me to attend the prize giving ceremony this Saturday....and then Yam Nee's sms saying that she passed her driving test....haha

After that, went for lunch at the cafeteria.... bread again....

Afternoon session... went to the children's surgical ward..... briefed by a doctor there... the same thing lah... but this one was more encouraging, she told us that we will be able to overcome all difficulties in time to come, though it's not an easy job....We went from bed to bed.... asking the parents of the patients what's wrong with them....and they told us their story...

there was an baby, he was scalded on the face, poor thing, seeing his face all covered with goss.... then there was this baby, who undergo an operation to make a pathway for him to defacate, and then a chubby boy, Fuad, don't know why he was admitted, but he was sure a cheerful patient..... and then, this girl, Kelly... wah sei.... at first she was quite shy and didn't talk much..... asked what was her name, age and blah blah blah..... hahha... after that she became very talkative..... talk talk talk... using her bear and tortoise as props... acting and everything.... ahe speaks in chinese and so, only few of us know what she's saying....aiya, all in all she's a headache....both of us argued about some trivial thing some more... hahhahaha..maybe because i'm as childish as her lah... haha

After that, we went to the mortuary... so called jabatan forensik... we requested to go there... and request granted... hahha.. The smell from the mortuary is so strong.... you know, those kind of salted fish smell, luckily i was immune to it already. It's not that i have this kind of perfumes lah... haha.... but sometimes my house was filled with this smell too, caused by a dead rat or a fish at the backyard....so, everybody(almost) was pouring minyak kapak on pieces of tissue paper and covered their nose with it... haha..as if the minyak kapak smelled better... but i just can't tahan the minyal kapak smell, so i just beared with the already existing smell...never mind lah.... After that, we were brought to the a room where the bodies were laid temporarily there before their kin come and take them back.... we were in luck, as there was a body in there, and the Ketua opened the white cloth to let us see... kalau mak jadi doktor, kena kuatkan semangat he said....

Followed by the rooms where the bodies are washed and then sent to the family members....nothing much there.... and then there's the freezers.... where they keep the bodies. There's one compartment reserved to keep the amputated legs, i didn't asked what they are goin to do with them.... and then the Ketua opened two compartments for us to see how's it like inside the freezers.... both of them housing decomposed bodies....one of them is a police case.....
Later on, we went into the post moterm room... the Ketua explained to us the function of each tool, and explained the process of post moterm to us....

ok, that's it for today... i need to sleep already... don't want to go fishing tommorrow.... hahhaa By the way, we have the Urology clinic and the PP1 and PP3 wards to go tommorrow, seems boring to me.... but again, it's the second last day.. haha

OOoh, i was called to go for the JPA scholarship interview...31st march..2pm....haiz.....

ok, that's all, nite nite, god bless