CHINESE....

I knew about my chinese subject result today. I got 64 marks. Despite this very B among my other results, i got first in class.... haha:) Thank God..

Albeit i don't have to take chinese for my spm, but i chose to take it, for reasons unknown. When i am in form 4 and Pn Tee was our chinese teacher, i thought that my chinese will just go 'kong' and that i will fail my chinese. To tell the truth, i wasn't good in my chinese since i was young as i came from an english educated family.

I did not know how i came to know this language. I remembered when i was small, my mum likes to make fun of me by talking to me in mandarin. I don't even a single word that comes out from my mums mouth. So, desperate, i would say:" Mummy, don't talk to me like this leh.." I talk to my dad, mum and aunts in english and to my grandma, i speak to her in hainanese.

When i entered kindergarten, i think, that was when i got to learn how to speak in mandarin. That's because my friends were all mandarin speaking. I had no choice. That's when i asked my grandma a question. Does she know how to speak in mandarin? Surprisingly, my grandma knows. Since then, i started speaking mandarin.

I did not know how i pulled through my primary school years. I only know some chinese word apart from my chinese name. For 6 years i studied in a chinese environment. I remembered, there were times that i did not understand what the teacher is talking and make a joke out of myself. haha Maybe that was why i am so quiet.

When i was in primary 6, when i was sitting for my UPSR, my chinese result was the worst in class. The teacher was so worried about me. At that time, i also wasn't good in my maths too. Through many cannings and punishments, i eventually got an A for both subjects.. In a way, i am very thankful to my primary school teachers for making me to be what i am today.

Untill secondary school, i continued studying chinese because it was compulsary for all chinese school leavers to take the chinese subject in PMR. Despite my always 79, 78 results, i got an A for my chinese. It was all God's grace, i would say.

Today, i chose to take the chinese subject as one of my SPM subject. But i don't regret making this decision, even though i did not do well in this exam. Some people did not take chinese just to get a straight 1A in the SPM. But i would not mind taking this risk, as i know that God will help me to pull through the challenges ahead...

加油！！！

Holiday!!!!

Its finally the holidays again... yay!!!!

However, i still have to go to school for the extra classes the school authorities had planned for us. But in a way, it was quite fun...

I really felt sad about the sichuan earthquake. The most heart wrenching thing is that many children had lost their lives in this quake. Some of the children had to amputate their limbs in order to get them out from the remains of the buildings. However, amputating limbs was their last resort as the children could not stand the pain already.. I really wanted to help, but i couldn't do much except for donating money..

When i become a doctor one day, i am going to get myself involve in all these life saving work.. I remember telling some of my friends about this. Whenever and wherever there's an earthquake, tsunami, or disease outbreak, eg SARS i will get myself involve in all these. That's what drive my determination to become a doctor. Not to earn more money, but to save lives... haha

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Today, an Olympia College person called me . Wah Sei!! He asked me to join one of their programs. I didn't felt like joining and wanted to reject him in a mannered way. Howener, i just screw thing up. First i said that i have extra classes ( which i do not have them in June) and later i mistakingly asked him for more information. The worst mistake i ever done. So he talked and talked for ages.... hahaha anyway, i am not the one paying hahahaha....

At the end of the conversation, i told him that i wasn't interested.... You see lah... I am so bad. Asked for informations and let him talked so much.. and then said that i am not interested. I shouldn't have asked him for more... I know my mistake and will learn from it... I am so bad.... so sorry.... :(

A Nightmare

I was working till late night, it was maybe dawn already.....

After boiling the water for tomorrow's breakfast, i went to bed. Finally, resting my head on my beloved pillow.

Unconciously, i drifted into dreamland. I couldn't remember what took place earlier on, but i know that i was in school and i saw kim and yam nee saying goodbye to me and they left. I was all alone, and i suddenly remembered the announcement that asked all the students to leave the school.

So i quickly ran back to the classroom to pack my stuff. My sister came to my classroom and told me to hurry up as mum had been waiting for me for so long already. So i make haste. As i was rushing for time, i decided to use the shortcut.... beside the school hall. I couldn't remember that one there. The school hall look strange... not like the one in school. So, i entered a backlane which was surrounded by those bars we see in the prisons.... with some big cylinders in it....

I suddenly realise how stupid i was to use this shortcut as it was a dead end. So, i decided to make a detour. I turned around, but there wasn't any opening for me to go out!!!! OMG, look at what i had got myself into!!! While i was looking for a way out, i saw some movements behind those gigantic cylinders. I thought i saw someone with curly hair. So i look again... This time, i saw Pn Wendy standing in front of me, looking cross. Was i wrong to be here? I thought. Then i remembered that the school hall was undergoing some kind of renovation and students were not allowed to be there. uh oh. Pn Wendy said something like:" U don't belive what i will do to u? U think u can break the school rules without being punished? Give me your hand now!"

So i stretched out my hand and a stroke of cane laid on it. Ouch! With my hand feeling stingingly painful, i left the hall. Pn Wendy had dissapeared to catch the other students in the hall.....

The school hall suddenly turned into a shopping mall, there were shops on my left and right. It was a magnificent shopping complex... However, the escalators were high, long and awfully scary....! I had a phobia for escalators since young. But i had to take one of the escalators to get to the basement where my mum is waiting for me. I think i had taken a very long time and was sure to get a scolding from my mum.

Finally, i managed to open my eyes, staring at my handphone in front of me. Waiting for the alarm to go off. The sight of Pn Wendy, escalators and the shopping mall fade..... my heartbeat started to slow down. I checked my handphone to look at the time, it was 0527.... I had to wake up already, to reboil the water in the kettle, this is what i had to do when my mum is not at home.....

The end of my nightmare.... what a relief..... Pleaselah Pn Wendy, dun haunt me in my dreams anymore, i had been quite an obedient child, i think.... haha

Saturday.

yay! Its Saturday again after a so long, busy week of schooling days!
Normally I had not much things to do during a Saturday but yesterday i was super duperly busy!!

My day started with an early morning tuition, physics...
Pn Liew was so kind to give us tuition on a Saturday!!

After tuition I went back to my aunt's house. At first, there were only last night's left over meehoon for lunch. Just as we were about to heat the meehoon up, a car, fetching my other aunts and cousins came back. Guess what? They brought back lots of food from my Fifth Aunty's house. Yesterday was her daughter's wedding, too bad i didn't attend the tea ceromony. The bridegroom was a DIGI agent. A few days before this wedding, i jokingly tell the others, You better don't be too happy to receive an angpow from him, because it might be a DIGI prepaid card !! lol

In the afternoon, I spent an hour choosing my best outfit to attend the wedding dinner. I couldn't wear one of my new year dress, the most expensive one, for it was too short already. I must have grown taller!! It took me so long to find a dress...!! That's because my aunt had told me to "wear nice nice har".

In the evening I went to the dinner with my other aunts and cousins. We reached there at 7pm and had to wait till 8.45 pm for the dinner to start. I heard from my aunt that the delay was caused by the bride who was throwing tantrums in the waiting room. Haiyo! Be punctual la!! Its your big day, you know?

The dinner was not bad. Except for the fireworks in the restaurant. The smell was awfully bad which caused the food to taste not so nice. However when the smell was gone, haha, I had the appetite to eat again. I ate and ate without thinking that i might get fat. Our table didn't finish the last few dishes. They served the lotus rice last, before dessert. Why? Shouldn't the rice come first?

By the time the dessert came out, cousin Shafiq was sleeping already. I nearly fell asleep too... But no choice la.. Have to "give face"

Reached my aunt's house at !11.30 pm. After bathing i went to sleep.There goes my 24 hours!!

Stress Out!!!

Life had been so very stressful lately...
With mountains high of homeworks, oceans full of homeworks to finish. It seemed quite impossible to finish them in just a day or two, not even when I'm given a month to finish them.


For three days i had been sleeping only at 4am, days of insufficient sleep is driving me crazy....!

-If this situation persist, i will soon become one.



With loads of homeworks, i had been feeling very awful lately, indescribable. I can say it's a mixture of guilt and some other things...

So, i had been venting my anger on some other things...

something i always do...

blaming others... hahahahha





I blame the teachers who were like gone mad or nuts already because they were giving endless homework, especially English...!!!

After completing 24 journal entries, and had thought that all is over, who knows our 'respected' teacher had given us another two more essays....




This must be connected to our 'beloved' headmistress who, lately wanted to check our homeworks.. Is she so freeeeee!! If she has so much extra time, why don't she just give some to me????



I am really not my usual self lately, had been talking a lot of nonsense and making a lot of noise, and pouring cold water on others.... haha fun!



Hope that this homework crisis will be over soon, yes, and hopefully asap..!



Otherwise, I really do not know what will happen to me if i continue to have in suficient sleep, not that i'm afraid that i will become a panda, just that my ' spareparts' are going haywire already...





Whatever it is, no matter how busy we may become, Be happpy!!



Don't know how to do it? Try! As there's a saying, Don't Worry, Be Happy!



Good Luck to all my classmates who are also going through this Homework Crisis!!



All The Best!!!